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Tuesday, March 15, 2011
i went to read back my old blog. there's this post of me talking to junkia, way back before we stepped into uni. I said: "&i really miss you.I had a long talk with your friend last night, when you were too busy to attend to me. He wasn’t happy with how you’re treating me, even your friend could tell that i deserved better. Why can’t you? He said,” He seems to think you won’t leave him” Is that how you really think? Because I’m about at my wit’s end playing nice. I don’t know how much longer I can do this role-playing of the perfect, understanding girlf." its wrong for me to seek comfort in another guy's presence while you werent there for me. but what made you so sure that i wont leave, not for another guy, but for the idea that this sad pathetic version of myself pining after you is not what i want in a relationship.
thinking of you. thinking of all the fun we could have while shopping together. thinking of all the places i could take you, or we could explore together. thinking of us.
Monday, January 17, 2011
what the hell am i doing? what the hell am i supposed to do? fuck all this. im a bitch seriously.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
bad day seriously. first i paid up for the spree without putting down my initials, so like, i donated the $20 for nothing. then now i left the freaking wrong email while buying stuff online. winner. seriously.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
you're screwing up your life here charlene. i swear imma gonna be studious girl number 1 if i can get CAP3.5 at least from this sem. major panic attack now. and yet looking forward to all the things i can do once exams are done. (:
Thursday, November 18, 2010
the truth is, i miss you. i really, really do. all that sitting around eating, talking, laughing. the bus rides home together. the emo-ing the panicking the good the bad the joy the tears. and now it's all gone. its like you moved on without us. you seem so perfectly happy with your new life, your new friends. then where do we fit in? ikr, i can just pick up the phone, call you, message you, anything. just get back in contact. but the truth is, its already awkward just thinking about it. i think we've changed so much that things just couldnt go back to the way they were before. all the innocent laughter innocent worries innocent friendship. its gone now isnt it. and yes, im angry at you.
Sunday, October 03, 2010
i dont like this. i dont like where this is heading. i feel like im losing you. i feel like im losing 'us'. can things ever be the same as before again? you dont like me to whine. cos you dont like pacifying me. you dont like me to cry. cos comforting me takes time you dont like me to feel sad or unhappy or emotional. but i cant control how i feel. especially when those emotions evolve around you. your school, your hall, your pageant, your commitments. they own so much of you. they get so much of your time, your attention. i can't see where we're heading. i'm feeling so lost now. i miss those times when i have you to myself.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
haven blogged in ages. and i wouldnt even be here if i'm not trying desperately to NOT fall asleep. ahma's gone for hols, and i'm left alone at home and i'm scared of the dark. honestly dont know how i'm going to survive in kr with the single rooms and lousy bathing facilities. totally totally dreading the start of school year, and seriously, i think im becoming more and more anti-social. other people are getting so involved in hall life alr, with rags, and camps, and everything under the sun. they like, make friends and stick damn quickly one dont know why. am totally scared of being so out-of-place girl in hall and uni but well, new school new start right. even though i know nuts about uni. all the bidding and talks and induction courses is getting to me. dont want to go dont want to go but honestly, do i have a choice? |