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today i so damn suey lorh...cum to school then realise i never bring nametag...then get caught lorh...then summoe yesterday still tot tt i this year so good never get detention...then recess went around to look for tt 2pid mr lim...then cannot find him then after sch then find him...then he say wat y never cum look for me earlier...isit my prob tt u cannot find me...also not my prob wat...budden in the end still good...dun need detention...then aft tt in class right...me and napok go spray water at each other mah...then he spray until my spelling book the page all wet leh...then the maths paper 2 right...all wrong leh...then the Science also dunno wat she toking bout..then ms talib say the CME test will be very dificult one already....then aft tt go mac wib ger they all...then now i bo luey at all le...then i still saving up to buy sumthing lorh...then now in the end spend all the $$$ i save...next week going to exam le...grandma say must go home for lunch more often...all becuz of my 2pid uncle lah...he cum back create so much trouble or me...then my mother say wat next year she wanna cum oso....wtf...cum for wat...make my life so damn miserable...then my cousin oso mayb cuming over to study...how cum my life like tt one...wanna look for weiming....so long never see him le...hahaha...then last time still keep taking his money....then tt time oso never go back yzps for teachers' day...budden ask geokting they all they all oso say dunno wat sch he went dunno hisemail...nvm lah...next year teachers' day zai suan lorh...

so sadded...comp at home realli cannot post le...me now in sch library...budden the comp so damn slow one...yesterday is mid-autumn festival...so sianx lorh...then summore my aunty come stay overnight then so damn noisy...then right...so guo fen lorh...last time one month can use 60+ hours of internet...though not broadband lah...=PppPp...budden now my uncle say from now on every month can onli use 20 hours like tt leh...one month 20 hours leh...wan me to die arh...then exam cuming so soon le...i dun even feel like studying...all the teacher make the exam sound so difficult one...heck care le lah...fail then fail lorh...fail even better...next year can go another class....dun need stay in 1e6 shou zui...yesterday went comp lab during eng lesson tt time read 3 very interesting story...budden forgot the website le...then december holidae tt time all the exchange programme and band camp cancel leh...all becuz of the 2pid teachers....zhonghua is such a sucky school...

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yesterday went lantern festival…nonono…is mid-autumn festival…quite fun lah…budden very lame oso…the performance quite nice…budden mdm lau dun let us scream…so bad right…then aft went to play lantern…then my lantern spoil le..then me and cheeling and ling2 wok wok around the sch wib not working the lantern..then me and ling2 keep singing jay chou song then cheeling sing sumthing else…everytym different one…then I went home bout 10.30 like tt…then bathe den dry hair then go slp le…then keep dreaming…budden forgot the dream le…then today wake up at 7…grandma so kaobei…yesterdae is earli earli clean the house make a lot of noise wake me up…then today is she go use the sewing machine then wake me up…I so hard then got chance slp late late she still like tt…


read a story…quite touching and meaningful one…is bout a guy call tee keong…so I short call say T lah kaes…then got one girl call lavindal…so I short cut call her L lah…T liked L budden L dun like T cuz L like sumbody else…then T dun gib up and then he touched L budden L by then is too afraid to belive in promises and trust men again…the more T liked her the more she drift awae…cuz she was afraid to compromise to lurbbe…then when L is too dependent on T T decided to give up and let go…cuz he dun wanna to give but not receive…then L said sumthing very meaningful lah…she said if u wan to disappear y did u hab to appear in the first place…u made me too dependent and now I cant survive on my own..things are alwaes the nicest when u hav not gotten it…becuz ur memory beautifies it..so y wun u b contented wib sumthing tt’s near perfection…y must u own things tt u like…y must u choose to gib up or not…cuz ur heart decides when it likes sumbody and when it will stop…y do u hab to go against it and try to control it and make it stop…y isit tt difficult for u to gib and not receive..r u really sure tt u never receive anything at all…wateva it is…I will learn to stand up on my own again…cuz mayb it’s the right place and the wrong time…or mayb it’s the right time but the wrong place…or mayb the place and time was right but the ppl are not…whatever it is…I m glad I noe u cuz I own sumthing tt is magical b4… very meaningful horh….

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now me in sch...wib gerx...so sianx leh...actualli oso nth much to say...my uncle cum back alreadi last night...he cum back for wat i oso duno...so extra...later mayb i going yzps...then tml mayb i skip dun go to zhss le...so sianx so easily irritated so emotional nowadays...then exam cuming summore...i so stress lorh...i haven even started revising...then like art those i so damn stressed up...i must must get top 3 lorh...if not i can go eat ice cream commit suicide le...=PppPp...


nowadays duno wat happen to him...like so attitude like tt...wat's ur prob lorh..not happi say lah...everytym ask then say duno duno nth nth...u giving me a lot of stress leh...everybody oso say is my fault...then wat m i suppose to do...u say i neva make u happi b4...me and ur definition of happiness is so damn different lorh...u dun even tok to me wat m i suppose to think..do fwens ask each other whether we make each other happi...is like...nowis even more stressful than last time lorh...at least i learn one thing...me realli very very different from u...me little bit things will happi le...easily satisfied not good meh...at least like tt u get to b happier more...tot me will never receive stress from u but in the end so damn different from wat i think...


me dun like my class...actualli it's not very bad lah...budden the class very different from me dreams the class...actualli if u ask m compare now i will say yzps 6g is beta lorh...at least tt time got grace sj they all can tok to them when i got prob...everybody like so kan cheong over marks and everything...then dun even noe how to joke..then even joke is oso alwaes tt few ppl...then not even funni one...then when we joke..renee they all duno act guai or realli guai will ask us to keep quiet...hope next year can change class le...budden confirm cannot one...

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me now in school...so sianz...surposed to be meeting gerx budden i think she forgot le...so now left me alone lorh...=PppPp...so kelian right...think weiting they all went kovan...so bad...yanling tml cannot pei me go kovan...this friday yangzheng got mooncake festival...jiajian say mayb he going budden he not sure whether need ticket...mayb i call shujun go wib me...


today history can go eat shit le lah...i studied so hard leh...then i no time cannot finish the paper...actualli is my fault lah...i tot still got a lot of time left so i slowly do...in the end last question write 2 3 sentence onli he say stop writing...so suay...hahaha...today oso mood swing...now like habit like tt le...cannot change le...budden must learn to b more easy going...

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Nowadays I like so emotional like tt…in sch esp after recess alwaes mood swing…then will always feel so sian so sick of my class and so irritated…budden like go wib germaine they all then ok le…like today…wat so nice bout the game lorh…get so worked up for wat…worked up until hit me so more…pls lorh…just a game…I not into it I not good mood cannort meh…then weiting one oso so lame…alwaes take my pencil box and water bottle…then must I call her name 6 times then she answer me..budden at least tt one not irritating at least it’s a bit funni lorh…duno y I like tt…sumtyms I feel so sick to be wib them lorh…I nort good mood liao still keep make fun of me…tt’s y wib germaine xinyun they all better…at least I change a bit I never notice myself they oso can notice…tt’s y we jiemeii mah…=PpPpp…then they alwaes go wallet here wallet there…make me so sick…me nowadays duno y so little cash…germaine is $ cum $ cum…me leh..yesterday take $12 onli then ‘give out give out’ then now left $2 onli…


I think I can go commit suicide le…my history so damn pathetic…then tml is common test le…I dun understand anything at all lorh…wat kalidasa wat shit lah…then duno why so mani ppl dislike ms lie…she is such a nice teacher lorh..then she got so wide knowledge…just becuz she a bit emotional and ‘upright’ doesn’t mean she not good lorh…actually a lot of things is ur own fault…like u all tok..although I oso think it’s ok lah..budden if u dun tok she wun scold u right…

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think this blog spoil liao...dun wanna make new one le..so troublesum lorh...then the virus now make until my comp cannot go msn group to post oso...haiz...

today quite nice dae..now in comp lab..this morning the IPW i keep forgetting the actions...hahaha...budden ours will not fail la...cuz even our costumewe oso crap a lot of reason cum out for the teachers...huiting they all go change the bulletin board...umm...i think the handprint one is nicer lorh..budden if they wanna change oso never mind lorh...


yesterday quite a nice day lah..budden got sum not nice the thingy...think she very guofen..never even de zui her lorh…alwaes so sarcastic…budden after went wib jiajian and shujun to yangzheng…very nice…mis the chicken wing so much…then we went to scout den there…hahaha…their biscuit so nice…then aft tt so damn funni…then he keep da lao po xiao lao po…luff till istomachache….toked to him tt day...he say he noe i last time like him..then he oso like me a bit…hahaha…budden it makes no diff now liao…cuz is last time derh thingy..budden at least I now last time is not I over-sensitive…budden I think she very kelian…she cut her hair just cuz she wanna new start to forget bout him…budden she not successful..

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit.Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.


Tree===The reason I'm called Tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I started to paint a tree in the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolor paintings. I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There's one girl whom I loved a lot but never dared go after. She didn't have a pretty face, nor a good figure, or outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl.I like her. I really like her. Like her innocence, her frankness. Like her cuteness, her intelligence and her fragility. My reason for not going after her was that I felt somebody so ordinary was not good enough for me. I was also afraid that if we got together all the special feelings I had would vanish. I feared that other people's gossiping would hurt her. I also felt that if she was meant to be my girl, she would be mine ultimately and I didn't have to give everything up just for her. The last reason made her stay with me for 3 years. She watched me chase after other girls for 3 years, and I made her heart cry for 3 years.She wanted to be a good actress and I was a very demanding director. When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smiled and said "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like walnuts. I purposely ignored what had caused her to cry and instead, laughed at her the whole day. When everyone else went back home, she sat alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I had returned from soccer training to get something. I watched her cry for an hour or so. My fourth girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarrelled. I know that based on her character she was not the one who had started off the qua! rrel. Bu t I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were filled with shock. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laughed and joked with me as though nothing happened. I know that she was very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ached as badly as hers. When I broke up with my fifth girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I had something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she had something to tell me too. I told her about my breakup and she told me about her getting together with someone else. I know who the guy was. He had been going after her for quite a while. He was a very cute guy who was full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the school.I couldn't let her know how my heart ached but could only smile and congratulate her. When I reached home, my heart ached so bad that I can't stand it. There was like a heavy weight upon my chest. I couldn't breathe. I wanted to shout but couldn't. Tears rolled down and I broke down and cried. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that didn't even acknowledge her presence?During graduation, I read a sms in my handphone. It was sent 10 days ago when I broke down and cried, but I hadn't read it since then. It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay."


Leaf===During Pre-U days, I liked to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has relied on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not the BGR kind but the buddy kind. But when he had his first girlfriend, I learned a feeling I never should have learnt - jealousy. The sourness in the heart couldn't be described usin! g a lemo n. It's Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hid my strong sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.I like him and I know he likes me. But why wouldn't he pursue me? Since he loved me why didn't he make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would ache. Time after time, my heart was hurt again and again. I began to suspect this was a one sided love. But if he didn't like he, why did he treat me so well? It's beyond what you would do for a normal friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I may know his likes, his dislikes, his habits, etc. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me, a girl, to ask him right?Despite all this, I still wanted to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him, hoping that one day, he will love me too. I waited for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he was, he would make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through and I really wanted to give up. At times, I wondered whether I should continue waiting. The pain, the hurt, and the dilemma accompanied me for 3 long years. Towards the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior began to go after me. Everyday he pursued me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I was willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm and gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realised that I didn't want to give this wind just a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away to a better land. Finally I left Tree. But Tree only smiled and didn't ask me to stay. Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or be! cause Tr ee didn't ask her to stay.


Wind====I like a girl called Leaf. Because she's so dependent on Tree, I have to be a gust of Wind, a wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was one month after I transferred to the new school. I saw a petite girl looking at my seniors and I playing soccer. During CCA time, she would always be sitting there looking at him, be it alone or with her friends. When he talked with other girls, there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's happiness in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit, the way she liked to look at him.One day, she wasn't there. I felt something was amiss. I can't explain the feeling except that it's a sense of uneasiness. The senior was also not there. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scold her. Tears were in her eyes when he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place looking at him. I walked over and smiled at her, took out a note and gave it to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled and accepted the note. The next day, she passed me a note and left. Leaf's heart is too heavy and Wind couldn't blow her away.It's not that Leaf's heart is too heavy. It is because Leaf never wanted to leave Tree. I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me and accepted my presents and phone calls. I know that the person she loved wasn't me. But I had the perseverance that one day, I could make her like me. Within 4 months, I had declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she would divert away from the topic. But I never gave up. If I decided I wanted her to be mine, I would definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I had declared my love for her. Although I knew she would try to divert, I still had a small glimmer of hope, hoping that! she wou ld agree to be my girlfriend.I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone, so I asked "What are you doing? Why didn't you reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head." "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head," she replied loudly. I hanged up the phone, changed quickly, took a taxi, rushed to her place and pressed her door bell. When she opened the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.


______when the leaf leaves the tree...does the tree feel more pain or the leaf______

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me now at germaine's house..cuz my house the blog cannot post mah...so i da rao yi xia...=PppPp...if not wat are jiemeiis for...kaes...so i mustda rao ta until very long le...cuz my comp say must delete wat cookie then can use blog...then i lazie to find out lah..=D


write today one first...tt 2pid 2pid idiotic germaine...keep saying fine lorh fine lorh then keep threatening me...eat shit lah...=PppPp...hahah...then i cum 1/2 hour earli to her house...cuz i quarel wib my grandma then i dun wanna see her face mah...everything oso $$$...ask me studie oso becuz next time grow up can earn a lot of money...hmmpf


saturday got nothing much to sae bah...budden i watch the jin qu jiang...jay chou shld get more jiang leh...he so damn talented... i think she very poor thing leh...she the same as me...wei le ta xai jian tou fa...and the thing is...she still has feelings for him...duno y he change so much oso...


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quite okae bah...morning went for lesson ms tan derh class...then jacqueline's hp kana confiscated...cuz ring mah...then the zhengyan must take off shoe...cuz he wear ankle socks...then aft tt went to compasspoint...all becuz of tt 2pid germaine lah...then rush there rush back then went to band..band quite fun bah...then tok tok wib yanling thru-out the whole practise...then mr aw like buay song le...cuz we 3 bar rest tt time oso toking...duno bah...then went home eat then aunty using comp then i cannot use le...then i go read book...read 1/2 wae then i think of a lot of thingy...hu si luan xiang lah...then i suddenli cry lorh...y my grandma alwaes dun trust me...everything i do oso must question oso must nag...i noe u sumtyms bad mood lah..budden i oso human being leh...then right...u like tt sae me...then horh...y now u change so much lerh...last time u not like tt one leh..u very good fwen one leh...then now u dun hab ur own mindset anymore...and u treat ur fwens like crap...then arh...can u stop asking me ready not..when i figure out my feelings i will tell u kaes...u like tt make me very luan leh...wat's the diff btw crush like and love?

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today blog like hao le...never lag lerh...today i tink quite suay bah...damn bad dae...first thing in the morning is grandma scold...cuz i use her hp sms until $150...then after tt had to bear wib her the whole morning while she tell me how thrift she is how thrift my mother is how thrift my father is and how i not thrifty at all...haiz...tink cannort use comp so often liao...then after tt go science tt time ms tan gib so much hw then i haven even started...then went find gerx they all...then they all toked bout s*x all those...then i sian liao...then keep bad mood bad mood duno y...germaine qingting and xinyun came my house...they all sae they wanna swim mah...then haiz...let them lorh...then so suay...saw my aunty going in oso...then she scold me agian for the $150...cuz is she pay one wat...then after tt went down look for gerx they all...budden din feel like toking...then they all keep plaeing and luffng then i like feel so sick of it like tt...then i go sit down at the plaeground there for a while then i went home le...bathe le then called jiajian...toked to him for awhile...felt much better then not sian not bad mood liao...although he keep saying i 'wu liao'...=PppPp...gerx and qingting tml nort going band...i duno leh...i see first bah...

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went watch garfield today...then tt stupid gerx and napok arh...cum my house never tell me first...then still sae me where will go studie...hmmpf...u all arh...so bad one...saw grace at library today...so happi to see her...so long never see her le...although just saw her yesterdae...garfield quite nice lah...budden like so lame like tt...


_____gan jue zhe zhong shi qing kai bu qi wan xiao...yin wei ta pian bu liao zi ji_____________

wo bu yao fu chu...yin wei wo pa fu chu le...gan qing jiu shou bu hui lai le...wo bu yao fu chu...yin wei wo pa fu chu le hui shou shang hai...wo bu yao fu chu...yin wei fu chu de duo...shou de shang gen shen...ni ke yi gei wo duo shao de cheng nuo...ni zi ji qing chu mah...ni hui yan juan ze ge ze yen de...bu shi mah...de bu dao de dong xi yong yuan shi zui mei de...jiu xiang yue liang yi yang...yuan kan de shi hou shi na me de mi ren...na me de mei li...dan shi ni kan qing chu dong dao hou...cai fa jue yue liang shang ye shi you hen duo de dong de...na me...ni zhi dao le wo de que dian hou...hui you shen me xiang fa? wo bu dong lang man...ke shi wo xu yao ni gei wo lang man...wo bu dong ti liang...dan wo xu yao ni de ti tie yu ti liang...wo bu dong xin yen...suo yi wo wu shi wu ke bu xu yao ni de ai...wo bu yao dui ren he ren shuo dui bu qi...yin wei ai qing li de dui bu qi..zhi hui zeng jia zi ji de qian yi...hai you da jia de tong ku er yi...yin wei bu dong xi huan ni...suo yi...qing ni bie xi huan wo...

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today quite fun bah...went to ps wib shujun and grace....so long never see grace le...got 1/2 year le bah...hmm...she never change...=PpPpp...still the same as last time...then we went took neoprint then went watch 'cinderella story'...very nice...budden i think 13 going on 30 nicer...budden i cried leh...when the girl threw the book on the floor felt so sorri for her...then after tt went jalan there wok wok wib shujun...then we keep luffing...cuz we tok bout gay derh thingy...it's lame lah i noe...then at ps there saw wallace ruihong and zhengyan...then like...so awkward lorh...duno why...then they sit in front of us summore ...wahkao...then keep turn back turn back...i still got a lot of hw leh...die die le lah...then shujun wan go library do CIP summore...cuz she pon her CIP a lot of times lerh...

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today quite sianx lah...went band then blow blow blow...at first quite fun lah...cuz me and gerx crap crap crap...then after tt gerx' instrument a bit siao siao like spoil like tt...then she no mood le...then i see liao i oso very sian...then after went mac...then tok tok a while go home le lorh...


got one question...very deep...ye zi li kai shu de shi hou...shi ye zi hui tong hai shi shu hui tong? meaning...when the leaf leave the tree...will the leaf feel the pain or will the tree feel the pain...


ni ming bai wo de gan shou mah...ni shuo ni ming bai...ke shi ni gei wo de feeling shi ni gen ben jiu bu ming bai...ni yi wei wo gen bie de nu hai zi yi yang...wo gen ni shuo de hua...ni zhong shi dui wo shuo...bu hui arh...bie de nu hai ye yi yang hui zhe yang...na me ni shuo...ru guo wo gen ta men yi yang...wei shen me ni hui xi huan wo...wei shen me ni bu qu xi huan pie ren...wo bu xi huan ni de zi yi wei shi...ni yi wei ni ming bai wo de feeling...ke shi shi ji shang ni dong de duo shao...wo gen ni shuo wo shi hen nan dong de nu hai...ye shi yi ge hen wu li qu nao de nu hai...ni xiang xing ma...wo xiang...na yi jin bu zhong yao le...ai qing bu shi shu xue.yin wei ai qing yong yuan bu hui you da an...

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found a poem...very nice one...


> > > I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
> > > "Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
> > >
> > >
> > > He said, "Please excuse me too;
> > > I wasn't watching for you."
> > >
> > >
> > > We were very polite, this stranger and I.
> > > We went on our way and we said good-bye.
> > >
> > >
> > > But at home a different story is told,
> > > How we treat our loved ones, young and old.
> > >
> > >
> > > Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
> > > My son stood beside me very still.
> > >
> > >
> > > When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
> > > "Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
> > >
> > >
> > > He walked away, his little heart broken.
> > > I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
> > >
> > >
> > > While I lay awake in bed,
> > > God's still small voice came to me and said,
> > >
> > >
> > > "While dealing with a stranger,
> > > common courtesy you use,
> > > but the family you love, you seem to abuse.
> > >
> > >
> > > Go and look on the kitchen floor,
> > > You'll find some flowers there by the door.
> > >
> > >
> > > Those are the flowers he brought for you.
> > > He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
> > >
> > >
> > > He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
> > > you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."
> > >
> > >
> > > By this time, I felt very small,
> > > And now my tears began to fall.
> > >
> > >
> > > I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
> > > "Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.
> > >
> > >
> > > "Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
> > > He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
> > >
> > >
> > > I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
> > > I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
> > >
> > >
> > > I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
> > > I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
> > > He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.
> > > I love you anyway."
> > >
> > >
> > > I said, "Son, I love you too,
> > > and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."
> > >
> > >
> > > FAMILY
> > > Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company
> > > that we are working for could easily replace us in
> > > a matter of days.
> > > But the family we left behind will feel the loss
> > > for the rest of their lives.
> > >
> > >
> > > And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
> > > into work than into our own family,
> > > an unwise investment indeed,
> > > don't you think?
> > > So what is behind the story?
> > >
> > >
> > > Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
> > > FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

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went to tampines mall to watch 13 going on 30 wib shujun and ruipeng...the show is so damn nice...wahkao...i see liao so sad...then i cried twice leh...once is when the girl found matt then found out they were no longer fwens...then once when matt tell her he cannot marry her...so damn sad lorh...budden oso very funni...


today tot of sum things...sumtyms we get use to things...and we take them for granted...we dun tink of its speciality and uniquesness anymore...sumtyms...we think tt it becums a burden to us...we complain about the unhappiness it caused us...with out noticing tt it is actualli a blessing in disguise...we think tt other things are better...but are they realli better? we dunch notice its presence anymore becuz it became part of our everydae life...until we lost it...then we learnt to treasure it...we learnt to appreciate how special it is...we began to regret not noticing it b4...budden everything is too late...u tried everything u could to bring it back...but everything u tried failed...soon...u hab to learn to let go and move on...but it's difficult...cuz it's like part of ur life being thrown awae...being forgotten...and part of ur heart torn...

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haiz...the computer duno wat's rong wib it...cannot post one..then now must use laptop to post...so ma fan...if realli kana virus i can die liao...i later going j8...mayb gonna watch 13 going on 30...i now so sianx leh...dun even feel like doing any homework...budden if dun do hui si de leh...


just now read one bk...so damn touching lorh...though like got no storyline like tt...the guy told the girl if he onli got 10 mins left to live in this world...he'll gib her 5 mins...cuz he love her so much tt she became part of his life...then right...they say time does not fade awae the feeling...it onli shows how deepli u lurbbe each other...

.ying.
now i bad mood sia...actualli oso not bad mood lah...is very moodless...today quite ok lah...went band then went help out at open house...this year so little ppl cum onli...then after a while went eat came back tok tok then go watch performance...warren veri veri ke ai leh...then after tt went mac...nth much to say bah...i must try to finish holidae hw by wednesdae...then at least got time to plae...


i going either ps or orchard to watch 'cinderalla story'...wib shujun grace they all...long time never see them le...esp grace...tink she change a lot le bah...duno leh...meeting at mrt station at 1.30 on tuesdae.

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just now after go comp lab went to sit wib gerx at the bus stop...then we all tok tok plae plae so lame...2 hours summore...budden aft go home liao grandma kbkb...wahkao....cun stand her liao...this scold tt scold little thingy small like green pea she oso scold...wat's her prob...not happi then say lah...need to scold me to chu qi meh...i very good to qi fu meh...


i now very fed up wib everybody...grandma kb this kb tt still nort enuff...scold me so much already...u tink i wan arh...u tink i wanna take the $$$ from u isit...crap here crap there...i study u buay song say i never help wib house work....i help u say i yue bang yue mang then still say i never study...wat u wan me to go do...then right...tt time i go watch movie nort like onli me and wallace down there...germaine oso there...so wat if i sit beside him...y must everybody sae say say...wat's there so nice to say...pls lorh...very irritating one u noe...wat's wrong wib u all lah...then right...the band oso like tt...i oso last minute then noe the schedule...then now like my fault like tt.wahkao...like tt horh...very wat leh...


*very bad mood now*

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now is fridae lerh...yesterdae i never tag...cuz never get to use comp mah...aunty working...now i in comp lab...just changed my blogskin...budden found out now actualli can right click one...haiz...y like tt one...then i lazy to edit summore lerh...stick wib this for a while bah...today we all were discussing bout IPW...then discuss until everybody so buay song...cuz ideas different mah...in the end is fiona cum and sae still got very long time dun need quarel man man lai...then we all cool down...thanks to her...today was realli very boring....then morning still got scolded by my grandma...say i very lazy etc lah...then say i yesterdae when she not at home surely is whole nite tok on fone and watch tv one...din even bother to argue wib her...haiz...later still must get $27 from her...for band derh thingy...so ex leh....why arh...dun even noe wat isit for...buy this buy tt then dun even use one...tml i helping out at the open house...hope will b fun lah...


this few daes a lot of things on my mind...then will suddenli sian diao one...oso duno y...sumtyms i dun even noe wat i realli thinking bout...budden it's like...haiz...suddenli think bout a lot of da dao li...veri long never tink bout them lerh...the last timewas when i tok to fongyung...then he alwaes one chunk one chunk of da dao li one...must learn to cheer up... =PppPp



~*~yesterdae~*~
yesterdae right...tt ms long confiscated my hair clip again...wat's her prob lah...my hair not even falling down...then she ask me take off my hair clip...wtf...then right...just buy one lorh...i buy she confiscate i buy she confiscate...haiz...

then horh...my chinese teacher said sumthing veri meaningful leh...she say right....from when u were born u r to wok on a road lerh....the road doesnt lead u to success...oso dun lead u to failure...tt road leads u to ur grave...but the important thing is how u wok along this road...whether u plant it wib flowers or make it into mud paths...it all depends on u...so meaningful right...then realli true lorh...from the moment we were born we noe we will die sumdae...budden we still wan to make our life bright and happi while we're in this world...so y quarel and make everybody unhappi...

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went to compass point wib gerx...tok and tok and tok a lot of things...then saw one necklace...veri nice one...then gerx say not nice...so special derh leh...spiral one...budden go eat eat then boh $$$ le...suan le bah...


just now bathing tt time suddenli think bout this...duno y...mayb cuz my cousin bah...from young right...i alwaes try to please everybody...trying to be the perfect girl...had one perfect cousin and one near perfection cousin...den i m the person trying to run and catch up...but alwaes fail derh...wadeva my mother wan...i do...just to make her happi...from drawing classes to piano lessons...martial arts to studies...i tried my best to out-do other ppl...now leh? i dunch wanna do tt anymore...i wanna hab my own life lerh...maamee...mayb u tink now i bad girl le...budden i m not...just tt i m not perfect anymore...i m not ur dream child anymore...i m so sorri...cuz u so much trouble....caused u to cry...caused u to be so sad...i noe u have a lot of problems oso...then u still hab to worry so much for me...i m so sorri...but i just realise...i cant please so mani ppl at one time...i m too tired le...i dunch wanna pretend anymore...i can never b perfect enuff...whenever summone is happi...sumone else will be sad...y bother trying...i wanna b myself le...



y do guys like to act jerks so tt girls will gib up on them...y must they choose such a wae tt will cuz so much pain and humiliation to the girl...y cant they just let girls off easily...the most pain-less wae...y cant they be more considerate...y isit tt girls alwaes hurt more...do they love deeper...love more...pay more...lose more...do they care at all...do they care tt the girls' heart is bleeding...do they care tt they r being heartless...