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Thursday, November 18, 2004 .xyingx. .xyingx. me now at the airport le...then the tym is 7.32am...wahkao...this morning woke up so earli...then now so damn tired...then still got one more hour then boarding the plane le....actualli now i oso dont noe how i feel lah...i dont realli feel like going china liao...wat's there to do...then still hab to see my uncle...then i feel like it's not my home like tt...summore go back for so long...4 weeks leh...then will be missing out all the fun...band oso canort go...actualli now i quite enthu go band lorh...cuz the instructor realli quite good...nth much to say le... xoxo Wednesday, November 17, 2004 .ying. friday i going overseas le... actualli now i dont realli feel like going le... i'll be missing out so mani things u noe... called ruipeng le... hahaha... ask him make the 6g gathering at a later date... budden dont noe whether he will rmb not... hope so lah... today band got new instructor cum... name is mr chew i think... he quite good lah... summore his break is longer than mr aw one.... =)) actualli mr aw oso quite good lah... mie will be like missing out 8 to 11 practices leh... so mani... then yujia say miss 4 then canort catch up liao i think... then next year mayb canort join SYF le... budden i so lousy... shld b canort join in the first place lah... hahaha... my ah ma very ma fan leh... call my aunty help me buy books... then now see lah...canort get the wholeset... then mie must go her house to take back the list... then tml still needa go sch just to buy tt few books... wok to her house damn damn far leh... think wok there wok back will take almost one hour... why din just buy the books from school in the first place... haix.... xoxo Wednesday, November 10, 2004 .ying. everything so wrong... I just dont belong... living in ur precious memories.... how cum everybodie keep telling me...i tell u sumthing u dont b angri kaes...if tt thing has to b said...even if mie is angri or not it wont make any difference at all right...so much things happening right now...i feel so out of place...like everybodie is in this world becuz they have sumthing to do...they have they own stand...their own place...and i feel like...i feel like...i m so out of place...i realli realli dont belong...i'm just a cloud drifting by...nobodie would noe or care whether it's there or not...these few days i feel so far from everybodie...i feel like i m drifting awae from all my fwens...i realli realli hate this feeling...i feel...i feel so helpless...like there is nth i can do abt it...i can just watch it from behind...i realli canort take it anymore...the night b4 i was toking to wallace on the fone...then i was like..i couldnt take it anymore i just cried...then he say change subject...budden i din wanted to change subject..i wanted to tok about it...i dont wan to have to think abt it everydae...then i was likejust thinking back about everything...in yangzheng i had everything...everything tt i want...and i tot that it sucked...and now...i realli realli missed it...and my father...we r so far apart...is like...the onli thing we hab to do wib each other is just the title father and daughter i dont noe wat's happening to him...he oso doesnt noe wat's happening to me...we are leading diff lifes...and even when he's hurt...i canort be beside him...and my fwens...yeah...i call them my fwens...budden sumtyms why do i wonder whether are they really my fwens...y do i wonder whether they realli cared bout me or not...y do i have to live up to their expectations...y do i kep comparing them wib my pri sch fwens...y...i just dont understand...and when i m realli upset...y do i hesitate to call them...everything's too tiring for mie...i m still young...y do i have to be like this...i dont want this kind of life...sumtyms i look at certain ppl and i think...i would b so good if i was him or her...leading his or her life...then i would think...if i realli exchange life wib him or her...and they becums me...how would they treat my parents...my fwens...my relatives...actualli i think life is very pathetic...it can cum and go anytym it wans...who noes...u might just wok out on the street tmland b hit...who noes... ... everyday ppl are born and everyday ppl die wat... /xianng [b]u dong/ xoxo Monday, November 08, 2004 .ying. how cum all these things happening to me...wat did i do wrong...sumbodie hacked my email account...say wat from my pri sch...budden i think is from zhonghua one...why like tt...u dont like me u show it in sum other way lah,...my email very important to me..me dont think is from my school one...cuz he noes shawn and everything...me now realli very sad.. my father fractured his arm...3rd tym le...same place...think his bone got sum type of prob..then just twist dry the towel onli then like tt...is my aunty tell me one...my mother dont wn tell me..cuz she scared i will worrie..budden now i even more worrie..my aunty say when i go back i must gib in to my mother more...dont make her angry...cuz her back oso having prob..why is all this happening to me...summore just in one dae...i oso never do anything wrong...why like tt... xoxo Saturday, November 06, 2004 .ying. so hungry now...house got nth to eat...nth to do..stae at home so damn farking sianx... sumtyms i look back...and i wonder...did i just lose a fwen...last tym we toked about almost everything...then now we bareli tok...dont noe wat happened...hope watever it is wont last long.. tuesdae meeting weiting tey all do the lit thingy...i didnt even noe needa do in the first place...summore go cineleisure do...wat is this...later sureli will end up not doing one..then aft tt go watch movie..is like...me now left onli $7...watch le tt means me will be officially broke u noe...haiz~! why did mr aw and mr goh hab to go...why cant they stay until aft SYF...now i so suey...my gold saxophone no more...then now it's just placed on the shelf...then i hab to use the rusty fungi-grown one..so damn suey...so mouldy sumore... xoxo Tuesday, November 02, 2004 .ying. today quite fun leh...morning wake up very sianx...then i do one journal lorh...me so gd =D) then tried to call shujun budden ended up calling the same wrong no..twice leh...then aft tt the person call back...then i act blur.. =PpPPp...then the person keep dear, u call me leh...twice leh...aft tt tym went to yangzheng wib shujun napok and jiajian, saw mrs tay...then play play play then went o amaranda gardens...wakao...there the adventure park so damn scary...then so high summore...then the slide so funni...cuz damn high me and shujun dont dare sit...then call napok go first...then he realli go...wakao...he landed in the mud leh...hahaha...luff until i stomachache...then aft tt we went to springbloom...tt 2pid napok...keep bullying me...throw my clothes and slipper into the swimming pool...ask him swim he dont wan...then summore he push shujun into the pool wib her shoes on lorh...then the sports shoe all wet...then aft tt he call ivan cum down for nth...cuz tok tok for a while onli...shujun damn funni leh...she buy ice cream then just open onli haven even eatthe ice cream kiss the floor...then she went in buy new one...hahaha...hope tml will not b sianx bah... xoxo Monday, November 01, 2004 .ying. holidae realli very boring leh...got nth to do at all lorh...actualli today wanna do hmwk one...budden woke up liao din even feel like touching those books...then in the end never do le...then went play wib my cousin...aft tt went to germaine's house do the banner...then aft tt we watch la bi xiao xin...very lame...then we tok tok tok...then aft tt i went home le...me saw ivan today...he on the bus mah...hahaha...so funni...see him liao i luff he oso luff...oso dont noe luff for wat...this few daes i like keep seeing 6g ppl everywhere...tml no band...thursdae then hab...tml gonna do hmwk...today cousin so irritating...my ahma dont let him watch tv and eat...then he shout shout shout..wanna watch princess diaries 2...budden no money lerh...i realli very poor leh...why like tt one...budden today bought one new shirt... =D //`*sianx~^\ xoxo