`chenyingg says:


haha..today got dance rehearsal..was ok la..nothing much de..just prac and prac and prac..we went yiching house instead of cc..cuz cc there book so ex..one hour $100..


actually just now wanna change blog de url de..but lazy lorr..maybe next time then change..tml got lit..must go study le..

`chenyingg says:


i'm irritated..


i think i'm gonna fail my history..i got the whole of my essay question and chronology wrong..my frens didnt bother to tell me need to have long explanations..and worse of all..i'll still fail even though i studied like mad for it..


i saw him tt day..and since then..his like..damn irritating..i use to think he's so nice..but now he's just getting on my nerves..he calls me non-stop u noe..and is like..just from 4pm to 8pm..which is now la..he already called me 12 times..i mean..i wont even consider him a very good fren lorr..then call me so many times for wat..


today got councillor investiture rehearsal..haha..me and rach were saying..we feel so proud of ourselves when we stood up there..haha..like VIP like tt..band was ok la..i like the dance..we sunday going cc there practise again..i think la..cuz they say it's very messy..

`chenyingg says:

ahh..die le la..gonna fail my history for sure..i studied so hard in the end study de all never come out..wat the hell lorr..die le la..if this time dont do well mother surely very angry de..

me and rach decide wat to cook le..i so proud of our idea lorr..but donoo whether cook le will still be as nice or not..and we got a very artistic name for it lorr..haha..so surprise we can come out with it..but dunoo the fish how..still must defrost and everything..

i think i'm a very confused person..haha..dont noe why oso..it's like..one moment i feel like this..the next moment i feel the exact opposite..and sometimes i feel so empty..and then the next moment i feel so happy again..sometimes i feel so lonely and hates de world..and the next moment i love the world so much i wanna embrace everyone..confusing eh? tt's y i am always afraid i made a decision tt i'll regret later on..so i kipp putting things off which should have been done long ago..

`chenyingg says:


hees..change blogskin le..this one nicer horr..haha..beta than the last one..

`chenyingg says:

this few days damn fun lor..cuz my class sell sushi..then think we made quite a lot of money..around 900 plus..and we could have sold more..but not enuff food le..but today de is more successful..cuz we grasp how to make le ma..yesterday de like so ugly..no shape one..den miss a lot a lot of lesson..woohoos..haha..

yesterday de band so damn wat lorr..de mr chew come back from penang le..den was like..i not even in council band..then he down there kipp saying us..canort play oso not my fault lorr..talk so much for wat..

today got dance prac..think quite nice la..at least complete de thing le..then next friday is full dress rehearsal..but i a bit sick of the song le leh..then gerr kipp saying she dehydrating le..so funny..

`chenyingg says:


nowadays i like school so damn much..noe why..cuz i hate staying at home..i dont noe what's my mother's problem lorr..she kipp preaching me..scolding me..trying to change my life..i mean..y cant she just accept me for me lorr..she even has a problem with the way i hold my pen..and she wants me to change it..i've been holding my pen this way forever..and u want me to change it NOW..wtf..why cant she just leave me alone..she just went to see ms lie..and i think they 'communicated' a lot..cuz when she came back..she made me study and study..and when i wanna use comp..she was like..'why do u have to kipp using the comp'..aaarrrhhh..i cant take it le lorr..


today ms chan damn wat lorr..i was in the hall with cheeling they all then she came up and started shouting..haha..cuz i didnt go for band..yupp..then she ordered me to go up and everything..think this few days i quite sueys leh..hope tml will start having good luck..thursday racial harmony..looking forward to it..haha..

`chenyingg says:

wahkao..tt mafan de germy change webby again lorr.waste my time change.haha.yesterday harry potter 6 come out le leh..i wan read! haha.sure damn nice one..but then one more book jiu finish le..so sad..

yesterday went tpy buy all de ingredients for the sushi thingy..so heavy lorr..then when i went to pay tt person gave me such a strange look..cuz i was paying for a lot of seaweed n mayonnaise..oso donoo how i bring to school on thursday..cuz is 5 kg of rice..plus mayon..plus container..plus vinegar..so much lorr..somemore thursday is racial harmony..hope got ppl buy ours ba..

`chenyingg says:


ahh..today so nice lorr..band so fast finish le..cuz a lot of ppl got retest..then the instructor dun wanna come..nice nice..haha..den went library talk talk with gerr la..went home around 6..yeah..den we were talking bout her ma..she now change until like so bad like tt..she shldnt like tt de lorr..


we selling sushi next thursday and friday..must come and buy ok..haha..

`chenyingg says:

woohoos..today rocks..haha..went eating at mac with weiting after school..it's like..so damn long never talk to her already..then we crap a lot..think we quite lame..cuz we keep forgetting what we want to say..yeah..den we stay until quite late..then so damn sueys..saw ms lie..die liao lorr..she sure go tell my mother again..

she very wat leh..she everything oso plan finish for the selling food thing le lorr..then like..plan till so yucky..haha..

band nowadays sucks lorr..cuz of some sickening people who thinks they rule the world..who think they so good..is like..wat..u say one for all and all for one..then how come u are making us do things tt u are not doing..stop bullshitting lorr..u think you are so great but u just suck lorr..dont act like u noe everything and u rule our lives lorr..

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quite long never post le..for me la..this few days quite normal lorr..nothing much happened oso..but i was thinking like right..why so many ppl so depressed this few days..just read shawn's blog..he CRIED leh..omg..i'm like..so worried for him lorr..cuz he just dont cry..and like..so many other ppl is telling me that they are depressed..cheer up okeis..this world is not tt bad..


my mama coming this friday leh..i wanna complain la..haha..but i just mentioned above tt the world is not sucky..so i shldnt say much..but i'm not really looking forward to it lorr..think will have a lot of restrictions..cuz of my lousy results..but cant help it lorr..who ask me kao until so lousy..like everybody oso worried bout their results le leh..

`chenyingg says:

i'm irritated!! i tried to sign in 8 times i and failed..and i wasted one hour of my time..

`chenyingg says:

wees..finally friday le..i've been waiting for this day since monday..haha..cuz tml can slp late le..today got band de dance rehearsal..so stupid lorr..actually dey want use mass dance de ma..den so not nice..then now we change to superstar..must thank lything and youwen leh..cuz they think of all de action..den quite nice la..is a lot beta than mass dance..but we like so wat lorr..cuz we separate into 2 groups ma..den like very waste time n everything..

sunday jiaming kelvin they all coming my house make sushi..cuz we selling for c.i.p wat..den must try out first..like a lot of ingredients to buy lorr..

i'm suddenly thinking..we're still so young..do we really noe wat is love..we kipp saying we like somebody we like somebody..but we can be almost 100% sure that at this stage it wont last..so why make ourselves so miserable in the first place..i'm looking back and i see so many of my frens troubled and unhappy..and all becus of some guy or girl that they claim they will love forever..and how many of them really do..if they love each other forever..why break up?

yeah..pple will be sad..but life still has to go on right..if we're just standing there and kipp looking back..it'll just be worse..everybody makes decisions that they will regret..we cant turn back time..so we have to learn to bear de consequences..its no use regretting and crying afterwards becus it just wont change anything..i

s it worth slashing ur wrist just becus u feel miserable..is it worth it hurting urself becus of somebody u properly wont even care about in the future..maybe he's ur everything now..but tt feeling wont be there forever..cutting urself is like..so dumb and it doesnt help..does the guy noe tt u're dying becus he's not with u..does he even care..even if u're frustrated u should vent ur anger somewhere else and not on ur body..if u want..u should let the guy noe..who cares if he care..at least he noes what is on ur mind..isnt that a beta solution..

and if u dont like somebody..why must we give them false hopes..why must we make them think that there's a chance for things to work out when there isnt..is it very nice to have pple liking u..if u dont like someone..cant u just be straightforward and tell the person..he or she may get hurt..yes..but at least they noe tt the story has to end..if u drag it on and on..wont de person be even more hurt..cant u spare de person some thoughts..i'm so damn frustrated now becus i see some inconsiderate pple out there who is toying with people's feelings..cant u just GROW UP!!

lastly..i wanna tell my frens..i'll always be here for u guys..

`chenyingg says:

today finally got school again le..ok la..not bad la..at least dun have history..woah..i so damn shocked leh..i got into council..

today band damn wat lorr..so damn irritating..haha..but one good thing..they let us off early!! haha..yupp..and i forgot to buy the french curve thingy..then now i dunoo how to do my homework le..so sad..haha..

my ahma sucks lorr..i reach home onli then she start screaming at me..cuz i ask her for money wat..but oso not my fault lorr..is the school kipp collecting money..is not like i m keeping de money for myself or wat..then i tok to her in so good de tone she say i tai du bu hao..wat crap wat sh*t..she so damn unreasonable lorr..then think she watch too much tv..she see tt tong xin yuan thingy..then de big mouth fish extort money from de da yang wat..then she tot got ppl extort money from me lorr..wahlao..her imagination damn good..i oso nv spend a lot of money lorr..then she talk so much..