i found ye qu's lyrics!!
i'm so so happy.haha. but the sad thing is, i still haven figured it all. cos there's all this rhythm that's so different and i had a really hard time trying to match the lyrics with the words. i heard his other songs oso, so nice. i'm so totally in live with jay. haha.


i was stuck at home the whole day. except for the part where i went down to swim. i thought i was sick leh. haha. but it seems i'm ok now. and i was so pissed off with this stupid ball shooting game. i was stuck at level 9 for ONE HOUR! can you believe that. it's like, everytime i'm close to winning, they dont give me the colour that i need. in the end i was so fed up i just switch off the main switch. haha.


there's going to be a 6g gathering. i hope. :) still working on the details. will tell everyone once we decided what to do.


i'm dead. weiting's birthday.

i'm aching all over. i had a terrible night. i was having this totally weird dream, but i was too lazy to get up. in this totally weird dream, i had a brother. and we were staying in a flat in the middle of a forest in the middle of nowhere, with no other human beings around. and then i realise that the reason for that is because we're sacrifices to the animals. so we were desperately trying to escape. then i woked up. and then i found out that i was sleeping in this totally weird position. and now i have muscleache all over.


for those of you who are bored and wants to read. check out this website.

http://www.jht.idv.tw/

his books are really really really nice. very touching de.

i can only use one word to describe today. HOT. i was perspiring like crazy even before the performance started. the performance was ok la. i'm so sick of bandolofy and washington post le. and ah, my hair is like so damn short, how do they expect me to bun it up. and the marching shoes really can kill. i feel so sorry for my legs just looking at the blisters.


i just threw away my next week's pocket money to top up my phone. now, i have a really really flat wallet. and looking at it is making me miserable. and i still need to save up money to go for 6g gathering and to buy jay's new album. and then there's the harry potter movie that's coming out. thinking about this is making me really really miserable.


haha. i found something germaine said very funny. (not ger, is another germaine) she was eating chicken rice. then she say 'there's a not nice de smell leh..smells like chicken'. haha. lame.

today is a very very very emotional day. so many people cried. (i didnt, in case you're wondering). fiona very ke lian, her whole eyes red. then nobody wanted to leave the classroom. everybody seemed to be in such a bad mood. i go to everyone's blog, and all they're talking about is how they'll miss their class and how much they think they'll hate their new class.


it's finally holidays. but i dont feel like holidays is starting. it'll be so bored for me to stay at home. i have to keep watching my cousins going to school and coming back from it while i'm stuck rotting away. and then there's the open house tml. i'm so damn worried that i'll make a fool of myself.


and to that person. yes. i'm angry with you. although i told you i was not.

i deleted the whole chunk of things i wanted to say to you. because i'm afraid that our friendship will turn sour if i really posted it out.

i got back my report book. i think someone should just shoot me dead. i dont even dare to get it signed. because i can foretell all the gruesome and horrible things that will happen to me if i ever do that. but i have to hand it in tomorrow. which is like, less than 12 hours away. i need some major help.


i also found out that sec 3 books are really really really expensive. i mean, if one book is $20 and you multiply it by the number of books we have to buy, i faint thinking about the amount of money i have to fork out. and i dont understand how come they cant just let us know our classes next year now, since they've got it all figured out. why must they keep us in suspense or whatsoever. i'm scared that i'll hate my class.


and ruiting got it all mixed up. she told me we have to go back to school to take lessons during the holidays! but now i think the announcement was meant for the sec 3s. but seriously, i wont mind going back for lessons. i'll miss 2e6. although it's not the most fun class. although it's not the most exciting class. although it's not the most united class. although it's not the most unique class. i still think my class rock.


i wanted to sign up for the sec 1 orientation. but in the end i crossed my name out. =)


p.s: i'm promoted to sec 3!!!!!!

LITTLE BROTHER IS REALLY REALLY NICE!!


school is really boring. us usual.

i wanna scream!! it's been like, forever, and my computer is still not working. down computer = no msn messenger. i cant survive without it!! then now i'm like, so dependent on the laptop.


i banged my teeth against the table. haha. now so pain lorr. was watching jeepers creepers in class, then got one part i dont dare watch then i hide behind cl. then the black black person (or is it a bird) fly out, then i was so shocked that i turned and bang into the table. haha.


school is really really boring.not mentioning that i still have to see her face everyday and try to act like we are oh-so-interested when she's screaming at us non-stop for being so selfish, cruel, idiotic, whatever. and it's not like we're not doing enough by sitting there listening to her teach, she still wants us to be totally grateful for it.


people, remember to pay band fund, unless you want your whole section to donate 50 cents more each. =)

i think i'm going to be sick. i ate one packet of cookies all by myself while watching tv. and there's like, 30 cookies in that packet. i can just hear my stomach complaining le. and then right, this few days like the more i sleep, the more tired i am. then the more tired i am, the more i sleep. so in the end i ended up sleeping the day away.


i'm really really really bored. i was so bored, that i ended up playing neopets for the whole morning. neopets very nice. =) and i did a personality test. i wasnt a chinese in my previous life. =)


ru guo you yi zhong chong feng, xu yao jin guo hui fei yan mie,
wo bu pa hui fei yan mie;
ru guo you yi zhong gu du, neng rang ni gan jue dao wo de chun zai,
wo yuan yi gu du yi bei zi.


was reading weiting's blog. then she was talking about this hole in her heart that cant be filled up. then i was thinking. in our life there'll always be unhappy things that happen. sometimes i may feel like the world has turned its back on us. but maybe, it's us that refused to aknowledge the happiness around us. but yeah, everybody cant be happy all the time. i oso feel empty, feel lonely, feel sad for no apparent reasons. we just have to live with it.

jay's new song is nice!

i was trying to download the song from xiaohan. but think my comp got prob. then canort receive. so sad! ye qu totally rocked lorr. i was looking for the mv oso. but cant download it. argh. they say the mv very nice de leh. is bout him missing his dead girlfriend. wo yao ta kuai dian ban yan chang hui!! haha.


flightplan is nice. everybody must must go watch ok? =)

today school is, umm, normal. anyway, nowadays go school oso nothing much to do. we finally finished watching 'babe'. it's so lame. but i'll miss looking at rachel's expression.haha.


didnt go band today. came home instead. i sick lorr.


my ahma abandoned me! =( haha. no la, actually she went over to my aunty's house. so i'm all alone at home. and i'm not complaining. haha. i watched initial d. again. and it's really a torture. cos there's some thing wrong with my dvd player. and there's like, nil sound. so i have to keep reading the subtitles while looking at the people too. yupp. and i finally read finish O.C. haha. the book that ger say she doesnt understand.

i think i'm getting depression. i'm like, feeling so down the whole damn day. one minute i can be laughing at wanyi's joke, and the next i'll be so dam pissed off with everybody. i even shouted at jiaming, i dont think she heard, but it's like, this is the first time i shouted at her. i get so frustrated looking at her.

i thought things will be okay during band. cos it was really funny.

but apparently i was wrong. i felt so damn depressed when i went home that i kept throwing tantrum. i kept telling myself canort like that, but i just cant stop it. and then now my grandma is angry with me, over a tiny piece of stupid egg. so ridiculous right. i even had to hang up the phone because i felt like crying. i mean, seriously, what's wrong with me. today really sucked.


here's another problem with me. i suddenly dislike her so much, i dont even know why. she hasnt done anything to me. but i just felt so irritated looking at her. it's like, she thinks she's so chio, so cute, so popular, so sexy. and then she does all this actions and talks in this way that she thinks is attractive. it's like, get a life. it's totally not attractive at all. it makes me wanna puke. and doesnt she realise that i'm not the only person thinking this way. luckily although we're in the same school, i dont need to see her often. i can deal with that.


i hope tml will be better.

went orchard today. with rachel and nicholas. haha. quite fun la. a lot of exercise leh. we walked from ps to shaw house. then shaw house back to ps. then back to shaw house again. haha. actually wanna watch flight plan de. but then never show. =( so in the end we watch corpse bride. not bad la. but so short. and a bit lame oso. i wan watch chicken little!!haha. rachel really provide a lot of entertainment leh. first she screamed when she saw the cello advertisement display. actually quite scary la. cuz is one cello with a human inside. then i didnt see it until nicholas pointed. but she didnt have to scream lorr. so damn loud leh. haha. and then we went to the toys section in one store. then there was this very cute pooh bear that was supposed to 'miraculously walk to you when you call it'. so rachel, being rachel, went to say "come here pooh". haha. so so so damn funny.and when it didnt respond, she went to whisper into the pooh's ear "come here pooh". hahahahaha. i'm going to die laughing. i'm going to miss her so much next year.


i really really feel very sad for them 2 leh. imagine how it would feel to be the only 2 person to retain. it's like, i wont be able to take it.


my ahma is like, irritating me. she blames me for not being able to find the key. she blames me because she's late for her meeting. she scoldsme when i told her i want to go back only during december. and she scolds me when i wanted to go out. i mean. wat's her frigging problem. is it my fault that she wants to watch finish the show before going out. is it my fault that i made plans. no right.


i just realise i forgot to set aside money to top up my hp. i'm so dead. i just hope that whatever value that remains will last till i can save up enough.

i signed the paper le. so that makes my choice final. i'm taking b4. but i'm already starting to regret le. if i wasnt so convinced that geog will score me better marks i'll really kick myself for giving up lit.

so many people taking b1 leh. b1 very good meh.


my sunburn is like getting worse and worse. it's red. it's itchy. it's painful. i cant stand it anymore. and then the worse thing is that i twisted my ankle.it's not swollen, but whenever i walk i feel this sharp pain.


school is ok la. maybe cos i like slacking. ger says it's really really boring. but i dont think so leh. watch movie. crap. read. talk. quite fun wat. =) went hougang mall after school with ger. so long never go le. as in really go and walk around inside la. and ger got me so excited about the prom too. though it's like, 2 years away and it's too early to think about it. i cant wait till i'm sec 4. =D

ger wants to be a hair stylist. that's like, so cool. haha. me? i dont know what i want to be. maybe some magazine editor or stuff like that. or maybe something to do with lit ba. i like phychology leh. but my aunty say s'pore no market for phychology.



















i know you're very good to me.

but i'm just not ready for things to change between us.

and i think you deserve somebody who appreciates you more.

i'm just too ren xin and demanding.

i changed my choice le. now my first choice is b4. bio. chem. history elec. and geog. yupp. i hope i wont regret it. or else i'll blame weicheng for it. haha.

i'll miss lit de. cos it's still one of my favourite subjects. but yeah, like what weicheng say, geog like much easier to score. and since i'm so lousy in maths, i dont think physics will suit me. i hope i'm making the right choice. =)

i finally submitted my choice.

1 - b2
2 - b3
3 - b1
4 - b5
5 - b6
6 - b4

haha. i choose all from b de. cos i dont want take triple science ma. rachel taking triple science leh. then we cannot same class le. dont know what weiting and cheeling choosing. i ALMOST forgot to put higher chinese leh. xia si wo le lorr. but heng, i remembered. but i never print out the form leh. dont know whether need or dont need. they also never give instruction to print out. dont know when then will know the results. i very jin zhang leh.


yesterday was ok lorr. they all dont know why. so fast tired le. haha. wei lao xian shuai. didnt know escape will have so many people. i went into the haunted house le. haha. but i never see anything, except that dummy when we first went in. cos was screaming and covering my eyes all the way. cheeling oso. haha. GOAL is nice. although i only can recognise david beckham la. but quite touching la.


i watch initial d again! haha. so nice. jay totally rocks lorr. wanyi they all say de girl very jian leh. but i dont think so leh. i think she very poor thing leh. she oso cant help it de ma. somemore she like tuo hai so much lorr.


i wan watch flightplan.

wah.we need to make our choice by monday, which is like, 2 days away.that's like, so soon. and i still havent made up my mind. i think i want to take lit, but i cant choose between bio and physics. why do they have to give us so many choices anyway. it's just making things even more difficult to decide. i think my first choice is still B2 ba. it seems like the best to me, so far. was talking to my aunty, then she listed out all the possibilities etc etc. wahkao. so damn much to know.


my level position is so damn low. to others 48 may be very high, but hello, different ppl are different. and do you realise how high my mother's expectation is. from 6th to 48th is a really big difference. i can just imagine how freaked out my mother will be. it's not like i didnt try you know. and it's no use explaining to her cos she'll just go 'you're just making excuses for your wrongdoings'. wth. why cant she ever try to understand. all my cousins are like, geniuses compared to me. they score full marks even in JC. that's like, totally impossible. i dont even know how they do it. and it's not like i dont try. i spent so much time studying, and yet i still get this kind of disgusting marks. (level ranking drop by a hell lot leh.) but yet my mother keeps telling me ' you're not stupid. you're just not trying hard enough'. i want to cry le lorr.


and as if my day wasnt bad enough. i had to have this really really bad stomach cramp for the whole day. and it's not even that time-of-the-month thing. and when i tell peilin, you know what she say. 'dont fake le la'. ok, i know i was like, acting totally idiotic and crapping during sectionals. but that doesnt actually mean that i'm saying i've got the cramps for the sake of missing practice ok. haha. but that woman was really stupid.imagine shouting 'oie. shut up la' for like, so damn many times when nobody is paying attention to her. she's just making a fool of herself. and it's not like we're even loud.


band having band camp on 15 to 17 dec. i'm not sure i want to go. i mean like, the night games will be fun for sure i know. but 3 days of practice? that's gonna kill me.


can she stop being so irritating. she's constantly putting people down, just to make herself appear cooler and cuter and whatever. but hey, dont you realise it's totally disgusting. plus, it makes you look stupid when you comment on people all the time. and like what wanyi says ' you're not even nai kan' . so why do you have to be so proud for.

i'm gonna be sooo dead. i got back my results le. i all just pass leh. only chinese a bit beta. i feel like tearing my maths science and history paper up. so damn lousy. my mother is going to kill me for this. she expects me to IMPROVE. but there's so many ppl with higher marks than me. there's no way for me to improve lorr. i hate exams. i hate exams where i get low marks even more. just thinking about my results sucks.


band start le. ok la. not as irritating as i tot it will be. at least got junior to bully. haha. fantasy bringing chocolate the next time worx. so nice right.


there's always a limit to what ppl can bear. a joke may seem funny what you just said it. but imagine repeating it for 50 times, it's not funny anymore. and the person who has to listen to this with a pasted smile will feel even worse. just put yourself in someone's shoes for once ok.

i must be really really bored. haha. i watched my boyfriend is type B like 3 or 4 times in just 2 days. and i read all my cousin's library books. haha. but cus very simple ma.


tml got school! i'm so excited.haha. i miss everybody.and this year going to end le. so sad. but i dont feel like getting back results leh.

woah. i stayed at home the whole day. and it's really really boring. and i have to bear with it tomorrow oso. x.x!!!


my boyfriend is type B is nice. haha. must thank nicholas for lending me the vcd. the ending very nice. but the guy not shuai leh. =D


tong xin yuan is yue lai yue bu hao kan le. the whole family is broken up. then got so damn many obstacles. is always you harm me i harm you. and it's always the same old thing again. wth. this kind of show where got nice. i wan watch chi zi cheng long part II. haha.

went ps, then bugis, then j8, then far east with rach and weiting today. haha. so boliaos right. waste my ez link de money. at first quite boring la. nothing to walk oso. especially bugis lorr. think is cos weekday ma, then a lot of the shops close. must thank rachel leh. she provide a lot of entertainment when she buy clothes. i cant escribe it here cos it will make us look really really stupid. haha. so use your imagination and guess what's it about. so funny lorr. haha. luff until so embarassing.and i missed 15 mins of the show lorr. last episode le leh.


and a note to ger: hahaha. u changed ur blogskin again! and being bored. i went to read her intro. and this cute girl's SMALL SMALL wish is to pass maths and science. god will have to use a lot a lot of power. hahahahaha. okay. i dont want to be mean le. GERR! YOU SURE PASS DE!!


and i need to clarify something URGENT: i do not. i repeat. DO NOT like that idiotic weicheng (he dont let me call him human s h i t). please do not insult my taste. i mean, seriously, which girl in their right mind will like a idiot who says 'hm' to everything you say and laughs 'wahahaha' in such a irritating way and keep calling you 'po la'. like, excuse me, this girl here, namely CHENYING is so damn shu nu and not po la at all you mei you. god loves me. everybody loves me. where can you find someone more nice than me. hahahaha.

hees.today i very good mood worx. went out meet grace to take back my things. then after that went mac eat breakfast with nic. at first tot my phone spoil le. cos got 4 button never respond de. but now ok le.


i want to clarify something. cos yesterday my blog got problem, then havent post finish. when me and ger miss the stop yesterday. it's not my fault! hahahaha. it's all ger's fault. next stop is kovan le she still say is potong pasir. blur de ren jiu shi zhe yang. hahahaha.


i saw one uber nice wallet le. i want for my birthday! haha.

so being totally totally bored. i decided to do the quiz on ger's blog. and guess what. i got the same answer as her. HOW CAN THAT BE! it's just so wrong. hahaha.

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.But you may be ready in a couple of years.You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

MY LEG IS KILLING ME!!!
haha. went bugis with ger today. quite fun la. but maybe too long never go shop le. walk awhile only my leg want break le. national library is so BIG. haha. got so many storeys dont know for what de.

maths paper 2 totally sucked. i left like, 4 or 5 questions blank. and 2 minutes after i hand it up. i remembered how to do. and it's the correct solution. wtf. i'm so goddam pissed off with myself. that's like, so dumb. i dont wanna fail.

tml going bugis with ger. it's been like, so freaking long since i go bugis le. cos there like not much to do anyway. but anyway, i'm still excited to go. =)

went j8 with ling wt and rach today. ok la. beta than last time. at least we talked. but went home so early. 4 plus only. monday going shopping with them. hees. =) buying clothes.

wees. i'm officially starting to slack le. the chinese paper was ok la. stupid compre. talk about wat suicide thingy de. so damn boliao lorr. i'm still worrying about my maths and science. i dont wanna fail.

they say escape having promotion till 16 oct leh. dont know true or not. haha. i wan go! so long never go le.

i'm going to flunk my maths and science. i just know it. the paper was like so damn difficult. i left so many questions blank. then now maths even if i got do de all correct oso onli just pass le. science even worse. all the question anyhow guess de. they set until so difficult for what lorr. not everybody is clever de leh. somemore i got study de. bleahs. read de book so many times for nothing.

just now went kovan with ger. haha. so damn funny lorr. she keep crapping. then i laugh until pain. finally can relax le. haha. but still got 2 more paper la. but tt one cant study de. i'm crapping.

they 2 finally start talking le. haha. that's good. one week le leh. still tot they until enf od this year oso dont want talk.

yesterday my dream so nice.haha.

wees..today is my ahma de birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHMA!! although you can get very irritating sometimes, i still love you. mwacks. haha.so happy. tonight got nice nice food to eat le.

tml exam le leh. but i've only read one chapter on history. shit shit shit. need to go study later le. but i cant seem to concentrate leh. i keep walking around the house. and i keep telling myself 'ok. i'll go study in half an hour' but i ended up NOT studying. i'm gonna be so dead. i cant believe it lorr. even germaine is studying and i'm not. i dont want to get lousier grades than ger!! =)

yay! one more week then can play le.