yesterday was quite lame ba. but at least i dont think i wasted away the last day of 2005. afternoon that time some church de people come my house ma. then we keep watching vcd. damien damn lame de la. keep making those stupid noises.

then at night went to meet ger. think we 2 very boliao ehs. somemore ger so childish lorr. wan take balloon. haha. joking la. the fireworks very nice. nicer than last year de. but the first person i see in this new year is ger le. is that good or bad? o.O

urgh. weiting. not i dont wanna change my blogskin. but cant find any nice one leh. then i lazy to make myself. wait until i one day very free first la.

today last day le. haha. enjoy this last day ba.

argh. i have this big bruise on my chin. cos i was looking for the power switch with the nights off, then i banged against the chair. so damn freaking pain. ok la. the bruise also not very obvious.

tml some church de ppl coming my house. then i around 8 plus 9 go meet ger. tml last day le leh. mmm. but kinda like no difference to me. hope next year will be a much much nicer year ba.

happy birthday candy! =)

hey. i was just joking. i'm not going to commit suicide over such a small thing ok. i've still got this long life ahead of me that i'm looking forward to, and there're lots of things i still wanna do, so i wont do such a stupid thing.

a chinese tall story is nice. so damn funny. but i dont like the ending leh.

hey. melvin. i'm really sick ok. stop doubting me so much lorr.

i think i'm sick. i kept sneezing non-stop the whole day. it's getting so irritating.

ok. that excuse that you gave me was really really stupid. i dont see how that will affect our friendship. so why do i get the feeling that you're avoiding me? i'm like, always initiating and trying to get you to talk to me for the past few days and i feel like crap right now. it's like you've become a totally different person who i dont recognise. one minute you're asking me to go out. and the next minute you say ok let's forget it. and it happened not only once. how do you think that makes me feel. i told myself i'm not going to care anymore, becos ok, like what erkee say, friends come and go and it's no big deal. but i really treasured our friendship. and when i try telling you that, you make it seem as if i'm some over-sensitive fool and you ask me not to think so much. i thought i'll never have to be sad BECAUSE of you. but now i am.


i dont know what my class next year will be like but i'm kind of tired of it already. sometimes i feel like out of all the people that i know, there are only so few that i can really spill my heart out to. and to all the rest, i put on this fake smile that's draining me of all my energy. i have to pretend to like someone even though deep down i'm puking just trying to be nice to them. and even when i'm feeling something else, i have to go along with the flow. i'm just hoping that this 2 years will be a quick one so that i can get out of here.


i was talking to my aunty just now. and i suddenly felt so relieved. cos i've been like trying to push down what happened a few days ago and it's not working. to those of you i mentioned, it may not seem like a big deal. but i felt really hurt and insulted and depressed and it felt so good just to have someone listen to you, comfort you and give you advice. i know that i'm not supposed to cry again becos i did a lot of crying a few days back already. but yeah, i did cry, and it felt good.


and i'm not going to commit suicide by overstaffing on pills. so that personality quiz was way off. it's just too painful. and i dont like pain. haha. so if i'm really going to commit suicide, maybe i'll jump off a building or something. it's faster that way.


dont mind me. i'm just being pessimistic today.

i'm going crazy le. what's wrong with my cousin lorr. everyday quarrel with his mother. then today so early in the afternoon come bashing at my door. very what leh. i doing things lorr. then when you try talking sense into you he'll keep shouting. he's like, only 8 leh, then like that liao. make me cant do anything at all.

i watched chicken little. haha. the show is damn lame leh. then so short. then like no storyline de like that. but the alien very cute. but how come all the alien lookalike. war of the worlds de alien oso look like that de.

arh! i wan watch king kong. but haven find time to watch leh. wan watch the promise oso! newspaper say not nice, but funny.

tml gg bugis with ger. like that i dont know when to do homework le. but i very tong ku oso leh. i keep staring at the maths and not knowing how to do. like that i next year how. later flunk like hell.

ARH!

i'm finally back. reach around 12 last night. haha. it doesnt feel as good as i thought it will be. i miss the food. i miss the tv. i miss my parents.

i havent finish my chinese book review and i havent even started on my maths yet. some people are so lucky, they can get people to do for them. haha. i cant even find anybody to copy from. maybe i really should do it myself. or else wanyi will say i'm lazy again.
I'M NOT!
shujun say 30th go do together.

i'm still sick lorr. this time go back very cham leh. headache. sore throat. cough. flu. stomach cramp. can die de leh. then i think havent adjusted back to the temperature yet. feel so hot. -.-

ger say king kong very nice. newspaper oso say king kong very nice. but i havent watch yet. oso dont know when free to watch.

full house rocks! argh. so damn nice lorr. too bad i didnt get to watch the vcd. maybe go back singapore le go rent or something. haha.

i'm really really really rotting here. and my mother is so damn irritating. she's like, always having mood swings and we're quarreling like every other day. argh. then my father went shanghai for work. so now only got me and her at home. i dont want to be alone with her!

i gained a lot of weight leh. now so fat le. haha. cos i'm like, eating non-stop de whole day. hope go back singapore le will lose weight lorr.

i'm back! haha. it feels weird la. everything is so damn different. the weather is colder. the food taste different. the language oso different. think if singapore like red a lot. then china must like green and blue a lot ba. haha. cos a lot of things oso green and blue de. but i love de uniform here! haha. the students draw on their uniform de. so cool!

mostly i just stay home and watch tv. haha. my finger got a lot of exercise leh. cos there're like, 70 different channels. thursday was the best day le lorr. cos tt day went out with my mama and her students. was some school outing la. went to some food festival thing. then cos the entrance fee very ex ma. the people inside came out to complain. then they block the road somemore. in the end a lot of people went in for free. so exciting to watch lorr. cos they all fight ma.

think i going back singapore on 20 ba. but haven confirm yet. everybody takkaires alrytes.