went compasspoint with ger today.
i bought my bio and chem books.
i really need to buck up loads.

think germaine is a strange person.
when others are happy she's sad.
when others are sad she's happy.
haha. now she is happy.
becos she loves renfred a lot a lot.

i know i'm sad + angry.
cos my ahma has been droning on non stop.
and she's giving me the cold shoulder now.

quote damien's blog.
"i'm falling for a girl tt i know we'll never meant to be.
but i cant help myself.
someone tell me how to forget her please."
unquote.
just wanna say.
the important thing is not the outcome.
is that you know you've tried your best and can walk ahead without regret.
it's easy saying and hard to do.
but at least give it a try.
=)

i thought everything was ok.
cos she never scold much on the way home.
but once i stepped into the house.
she started going on and on about my stupidity and others' intelligence.
wth.
yeah. he got a scholarship.
but so what.
i'm not him. even if you wished i was.
i cant be and never will.

hey.
in case you dont know.
i've been giving in to you a lot this year.
so dont push your luck.

just got back my results.
it sucked big time.
and mr lee, i didnt mean to roll my eyes de.
but when my ahma kept going on and on about how my results are so damn lousy i just cant help it.

learning carnival was ok ba.
the LOST in chinatown was lame.
we went around in circles and at the end we only went to 4 stations.
maybe cos we slacked too much.
and we kept going to 7-eleven.
but in the end we still went back earlier than yuenchi's group.
haha. girl power rocks.

the literary evening was quite boring.
some of the lit plays were quite funny.
but the movie sucked la.
why show us something that happened in the olden times.
i cant even relate to it.
and all the language and the 'flogging', it's just stupid cans.
and then the few of us kept learing dialects.
and thruout the whole night i only learnt 4 sentences.
xinyun learn damn much lorr.
cos she wants to scold chunyang.
haha.

tml got no lessons.
yay!

i feel like shit.
i seriously hate sec 3 work.
i'm either failing or barely passing.
i'm getting all Bs and Cs while everybody else is improving.
it's damn crap la.
totally felt like crying when i got back my chem la.
shits.

go watch dorm!
it's damn nice.

i just found out something scary.
if you watched final destination you'll agree with me.
i was flipping thru the yr book.
and i realise that HER NAME WASNT INSIDE.
what the hell.
is it just coincidental?

i bloody hate you.
cant you even try to be nice for at least a week.
everytime i thought we're on good terms,
you pick some unreasonable or minor thing to scold me.
when i tried to argue, you scold me even more.
what's your freaking problem.
they're my friends, not yours.
i never criticise your friends, why must you always criticise mine?
everything i do is not right.
everything i do doesnt suit you.
and i'm already so old and you can bring out what i did in p4 to talk about.
i was bad that time doesnt mean i still am now.
dont you understand what's trust?
you only believe what you want to believe,
even if it's not true.
i bloody hate your attitude.

i really dont know what you want.
i'm not trying to act blur or anything.
you're saying it's not my fault.
and you're saying you very stressed out.
but it all sounds like i'm to blame.
i dont know what you want me to do.

i want to say what's deep down.
i dont know whether you'll be reading my blog or not.
but i dont know how else to reply you.
it just wont work.
not becos i'm not willing to try.
not becos of my studies.
not becos i'm angry.
but becos i believe that it wont work out.
i was totally in love with you last time.
but i'm not now.
i just cant get back that kind of feelings.
and you've hurt me way too much,
and i cant trust myself to trust you totally.
it's just this 2 simple reasons.
but i think it makes a hell lot of difference.

maths ssp rocked.
haha. so fast finish le.
ms leong so cute.

heard that she tried to commit suicide.
and now she's at IMH.
i mean, what for.
yeah, i admit that i've felt like that before.
but i didnt really went to try it.
isnt it bad enough that you were already cutting and hurting yourself.
and now you overdosed.
is it worth giving up your life for a guy?
you're still so damn young and you have a long life ahead of you.
you're letting people control your life.

just woke up.
slp is so precious.
haha.
only 3 hours of slp last night lorr.

i want comment on something la.
some probation councillors really have sickening attitudes.
i dont even know how they got in in the first place.
and some are just damn arrogant la.
doesnt mean that you got nominated by a teacher
you're damn good.
you're not even confirmed in yet,
so stop like dissing us and everything.

tml got bloody maths ssp.
die le lorr. haha.
haven even touched my hmwk at all.
but maybe after tt going eugene's house again.
ernest dont jealous ah.
haha.

p.s: nanny mcphee is nice!

Boos!
haha.
the council camp was ok la.
at first was quite boring.
cos all the games like sian sian de.
but then the gradutes came back, then become more fun le.
the mass dance rocked.
haha.
so sad i have to miss tml de camp.

yay! i learnt to play pool.
and at least i can beat zhengyan.
haha.
played for 3 consecutive days le.
i wan learn mahjong!

now yujia and matthew all slping le.
they both sharing one blanket.
haha.
i still so energetic.

the BBQ is so damn fun la.
haha.
the blind mice was so idiotic.
the playground de slide there oso crack le.
haha.
then still got all the hei bai ceh's new actions.
so damn gayish.
haha.
and the soccer ppl ah.
haha. so naughty.
make spoil ppl lamp.
the truth or dare is the best de lorr.
think clar's prank call was the funniest.
and yuenchi oso very kelian.
eat 5 satay in 30 sec.
so scared he choke.
haha.

the food was nice.
but i think a bit unhygienic leh.
haha.
who go home get stomachache?
cos we like sharing all the utensils for both cooked and uncooked food.
bleahs.
but i cook de wings very nice right.
haha.

but end so early.
10 plus only leh.
next time must have bbq again.
then dun end so early ah.
haha.

woah.
hope we can finish our toilets project.
i haven even started on my reflection.
and i'm stuck.
shits.
i hate one-week projects.
think kazan very kelian.
she has to touch up on the project.
and like, she deco-ing the whole thing.
ltr she whole night on the comp.
haha.

band today very slack ba.
i was in the band store almost thruout the prac.
cos mel wanted to 'discuss how to solve the problem'
although i dont even think there's a problem.
haha.
really gonna miss him and peipei lots.

think he's frigging fickle-minded.
i mean, what's wrong with admitting tt u like her,
cos you really do.
and you're like telling everybody different stories.
how do you think tt will make her feel.
you're so totally not worth it anyway.

was talking to ger bout her and him.
and we're like, so cannot believe it.
how is that possible right.
diaos.

went kovan with wt and rach aft sch.
then went back sch with ger deanna and kaijia.
and the playground so scary.
so turny one.
didnt watch the lit play in the end.
cos we were crapping in class.

tml is another sickening band day.
and we're going to repeat the whole thursday episode again.
shucks.
i wan go home early de lorr.
nvm.
look forward to friday bbq.
=)

came back from clar's house le.
we're like, gossiping all the way.
haha.
from sec 1 until sec 4.
then just talk and talk and talk through out.
went home tt time saw jiajian.
haha. so happy to see him sia.
cos so long nv see le ma.
think now he go school super early de.

my shoulderache acting up again.
so stupid lorr.
so painful somemore.
then dunno why suddenly feel so fed up.
so much hmwk haven do.
so much things no time to do.
so much things to learn yet i dun understand.

and you're like, wtf.
you got split personality isit.
sometimes so nice sometimes so bad.
i dont even get what's your problem.
one day you can like go'heys let's go out'
then the next day you can say'i dont wanna sms you le'
wtf.

We are theUNFORTUNATE students
Led by theUNQUALIFIED teachers
To do theUNNECESSARY work
For theUNGRATEFUL school.
haha.
saw this at michelle's blog.
so cute right.

i'm going to clar's house for tt eng project in maybe one hour's time.
hope can finish it ba.
but i think we'll be slacking lots.
=)

i'm not sure whether i have maths ssp tml.
isit only for those who fail.
or is tt meant for the retest only.
?!?

p.s. toilets are really interesting.
if you dont believe me,
check it up on the internet.

wah. today is such a freaking day.
so damn many people cried.
why?!?
cos sec 3 life is so damn damn stressin.
and i really pity rachel.
she's like. so stressed out.
3e1 is totally freaky.
rachel. jiayous.
i love you gal! =)

band was ok la.
we like, 3 then go.
melmel and peipei next week last week le.
gonna miss them so so much.
muacks muacks muacks.

i love saxophone section!
although we're always being scolded.
for being too talkative.
for being too noisy.
for being too not-paying-attention.
for being too talk-back to seniors.
for being too complaintive.
for being too slack.
we totally rock!
and we'll keep rocking!

and i dont see any problem here.
i dont know why i should feel remorseful.
i got nothing to do with mr chew being angry.
so what if he has pms every month.
and he shldnt be scolding us when he's buay song with ppl tt skip band.
i mean, does he think that ppl who skip band will suddenly pop out when he scolds us, the ppl tt actually bother to go?
and he should learn some new vocab.
even my sec 1 can memorise all his famous words
about how lousy we are.
bleahs.

but one thing made me ultra happy today.
my tt thing came!
although i cramped the whole day
but it actually mean tt i wont be having it during the bbq.
yay!

one last thing.
I LOVE GERMAINE'S BLOG'S SONG.
it totally rocks.
go and listen.
and you'll love it.
just like i did.