it's really true.
it's bad luck to stand in the middle when taking photos.
i believe now.
cos I"M HAVING SO MUCH BAD LUCK!


argh!
somebody help me la.
today is really not my day.
and it's only 10am now.
shits.

i'm HUNGRY!
hahaha.
i'm stuck at home with nothing to eat.
someone cook for me please.

tml is my bio test le.
and i'm still freaking slacking here.
i hope i dont fail another one.


chunyang was teaching me the chem today.
and i realise that it's actually not as hard as i thought.
i shouldnt have failed.
hahaha.


gonna go to eugene's house play pool on sunday!
so happy.
hahaha.
so long never play le.


i seriously dont think i did anything wrong.
so i dont know how come you're acting that way.

my SS was like SHIT!
it sucked.

i know i promised not to come online during the wkdays.
but i'm waiting for my dinner.
so it's ok ba.
=P


today was ok ba.
haha. somehow i'm happy to be back in school.
at least i dont feel that i'm wasting my time.


i think the latecomers today damn kelian la.
and i feel so bad.
sportchecking all their handphones and mp3s.
and i was SO LATE for my bio class.


i seriously dont think i'm ready for exams.
i dont understand my maths a maths chem and bio.
and i dont think revision will help either.
so i'm dead.


after school went to clar's house.
her dog very cute.
haha.
only the head and tail got fur.
all the rest shave away le.

and thanks to jonathan la.
haha.
cos he so nice.
raining still pei me go home.


tml is my advance paper le.
god bless me.

i know i promised not to come online during the wkdays.
but i'm waiting for my dinner.
so it's ok ba.
=P


today was ok ba.
haha. somehow i'm happy to be back in school.
at least i dont feel that i'm wasting my time.


i think the latecomers today damn kelian la.
and i feel so bad.
sportchecking all their handphones and mp3s.
and i was SO LATE for my bio class.


i seriously dont think i'm ready for exams.
i dont understand my maths a maths chem and bio.
and i dont think revision will help either.
so i'm dead.


after school went to clar's house.
her dog very cute.
haha.
only the head and tail got fur.
all the rest shave away le.

and thanks to jonathan la.
haha.
cos he so nice.
raining still pei me go home.


tml is my advance paper le.
god bless me.

i know i promised not to come online during the wkdays.
but i'm waiting for my dinner.
so it's ok ba.
=P


today was ok ba.
haha. somehow i'm happy to be back in school.
at least i dont feel that i'm wasting my time.


i think the latecomers today damn kelian la.
and i feel so bad.
sportchecking all their handphones and mp3s.
and i was SO LATE for my bio class.


i seriously dont think i'm ready for exams.
i dont understand my maths a maths chem and bio.
and i dont think revision will help either.
so i'm dead.


after school went to clar's house.
her dog very cute.
haha.
only the head and tail got fur.
all the rest shave away le.

and thanks to jonathan la.
haha.
cos he so nice.
raining still pei me go home.


tml is my advance paper le.
god bless me.

i'm SO FREAKING BORED!
i'm stuck at home with
nothing to do.
nothing to eat.
nothing to watch on tv.
and lots of hmwk.
why must the hmwk be so much and so difficult.
argh.


it's almost two o clock le.
and i still haven eaten my lunch.
and i keep feel my stomach complaining le.
shits.


maybe i shld go get something to eat.

i'm BACK!
hahaha.
today never even study la.
talk talk talk talk all the way.
the whole day wasted le.
the tml must pia like hell.


i finally found out who was jiecai.
was flipping thru the yrbook just now.
yuan lai shi ta.
omg. i seriously hope he wakes up.

wahahaha.
i'm so gonna fail another a maths test.
it was meant to pull up our marks.
but it turned out to be so effing difficult.


today was a very nice day la.
despite that test.
the whole day was slacking all the way.
from chem to maths, i wasnt listening at all.
then aft tt went mac eat then went back for the council debrief.
then stayed back in class to talk lorr.
and i helped to fold the paper cranes!
though i dont know jc, but hope he will wake up soon ba.


and i'm damn curious.
how come our class de boys like to wear checkered boxers.
is there only a few patterns available.
or isit becos checkered boxers are more comfortable.


(edited)
christ asked me to do this.
so being the nice girl that i always am.
i didnt want to disappoint her.
haha.


15 things you might not know about me.
1. i'm almost blind. my spects is 600 degrees. =D
2. i've never really regretted going to zhss.
3. i sleep and eat a lot. but i'm cuter than pigs. hahaha.
4. i'm NOT short. i'm over 160cm le. =D
5. i may not be pretty, sexy, or smart. but at least i'm cute. muahahahas. =P
6. i love my friends a lot.
7. i dont know how to play cards.
8. i dont know how to play mahjong.
9. i'm getting more and more stupid everyday.
10. i've never been on a diet.
11. i dont eat spicy stuff.
12. i think life is unfair. but it's still beautiful.
13. i think band is a waste of my time. but i still go to the practices.
14. i secretly pray that i'll score damn well for my O levels.
15. i'm scared of the dark.

yay!
i love ms TAN GHIM HUA.
hahaha.
she seriously rock.
she's so freaking funny.


tml is frigging chem.
i hope i dont fail.


rachel still has one and a half week left in zhss.
i'll miss her like hell.


i'm not confused anymore.


thanks to all those people who were there for me,
and gave me valuable advices.
love you all.

haha. today is a good day?
i not sure.
but everybody say i very happy today.
so ok lorr. i'm happy.


had my maths retest today.
it sucked.
becos now not only do i not know the questions i got wrong.
i forgot how to do even those that i got correct during the actual test.


and i realise i kind of miss him.
i know everybody is telling me to follow my heart and stuff,
but i'm just confused luh.
was talking to clar,
then i realise i sort of dont want to think about it anymore.

yesterday was fun.
=D


what if i really liked him.

i'm back from mandai crematorium.
it was damn BORING.
we were there for like, 20 mins?
then we went to eat lunch.
and the car ride was TERRIBLE.
imagine 10 people squeezing into one car.
hahaha.


and i decided that from today onwards,
my post will not be so depressing anymore.
because (according to eugene), life is good.


damien make me do the test,
so as to not disappoint him,
i did the test!
hahaha.

TestName 20 pple you can think of right now at the top of your head. Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 ppl.

1/shujun
2/weiting
3/ger foo
4/damien
5/daryl
6/ger lee
7/kohjin
8/rachel
9/jordon
10/cheeling
11/kelvin
12/martin
13/chunyang
14/ernest
15/chinhao
16/clarissa
17/yingzhen
18/jac
19/eugene
20/zhengyan

START
1.how did u meet 14?
erm. student council? think is ba.

2.what would you do if u've never met 1?
i'll have one lesser best friend during my primary school yrs! oh gosh. i totally miss her. haha.

3.what would u do if 20 and 9 dated?
hahaha. one will be happy? o.O. but think zhengyan will die without girls.hahaha.

4.did u ever like 19?
nope. we're just good friends. =)

5.would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
nope. becos they're both no lesso.

6.Describe 3.
GERMAINE is RETARDED. hahaha. she likes to say she's cute, she likes people to give in to her. and she's so hua chi. haha. but she's my bestie.

7.Do u tink 8 is attractive?
yupp. no doubt rach is. she's so damn cute and blur.

8.Tell me sth about 7.
umm. i just got to know kohjin for not long. think he's a very nice person ba.

9.Do you know any of 12's family?
no. never ask him before. =D

10.What's 8's favourite?
erm. she likes to eat? hahaha. and she likes to laugh a lot a lot.

12.what language does 15 speak?
i speak to him in chinese. haha. find it damn weird to communicate in english with him.

11.what would u do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you?
totally freak out. haha. but she wont. cos she's straight.

13.Who is 9 going out with?
erm. dont think he's attached.

14.how old is 16 now?
15!

15.When's the last time u talked to 13?
haha. last night.

16.what is 2's favourite band/singer?
she likes a lot.

17.would u ever date 4?
haha. if he's cool like jay, cute like wilber, shuai like nicholas then i'll maybe consider.

18.would u ever date 7?
haha. think he likes someone already? o.O

19.Is 15 single?
think so. hahaha.

20.What is 10's last name?
bird.

21.Would u ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
hahaha. no way. it'll be too weird.

22.What school does 3 go to?
zhss.

23.Where does 6 live?
yishun.

24.What's yr fav thing about 5?
erm. he's nice to talk to.

25.Have u seen number 1 naked?
haha. does swim suit count?

ran my 2.4 today.
i got A still la,
but the timing was lousier than last yr.
and i'm disappointed.
run finish tt time want to die le.
haha.


went j8 for dinner with jac yingzhen clar kellie chunyang eugene and jarrold.
then we went to take neos!
haha.
first time i take with all of them.
then ltr went home with eugene and clar.
then there was this uncle tt glared at us and told us to keep quiet.
haha.
maybe cos we really very noisy la.


i failed my a maths.
sickening lorr.
failed by tt damn pathetic 3 marks.
i really hate maths and chem.
i dont understand one shit the tcher is toking bout.


i really dont know how i feel.
i dont know what my heart wants.
becos it doesnt want to listen to my head.

A maths was shit.
it's so damn crappy LA.
it totally spoiled my day.
i dont even know how to do one single question.
i'm such a failure.
and i'm going to kill jordon if he says he's gonna get 21 again.


my mother is really expecting too much from me.
if she really expects me to be at the study tavle day and night then she's really crazy.
and i've had enough listening to her drone on and on.
i aint gonna take anymore crap.

went eugene house to study in the afternoon.
we were like, playing and studying?
but most is play de la.
i'm damn scared for my a maths test tml.
think ltr going to study again.
now i got one big baluku on my forehead.
all thanks to zhengyan.
and now i cant even wash my face properly
cos it's so painful.
blehs.
he should feel guilty.


went to think my hair.
not much diff la.
but at least now my head feels lighter.
and there's lesser hair to maintain.
haha.


i dont even know how i feel.

in the end didnt go out with ger.
cos we realised that it's too rush le.
haha.
she rushing all over singapore today.
in the end went out for lunch with damien they all.
then saw one small boy at the bus stop.
his pants was pulled all the way down.
and he kept walking around.
damn obscene.
-.-


i guess it's better being numb.
feeling that losing myself feeling was really freaking me out.
it's like, my mood wasnt in my control anymore.
and it wasnt just normal mood swings.

i think my mood swings is getting out of hand.
so beware of me when it's tt time of the month.
=P

and i'm damn disgusted by ger's post.
when did i become chennie chen chen.
that sounds so mushy.
bleahs.

sports day was SLACK.
it didnt rain.
and there was no refreshment.
i dont know what they put that duty for.
and i was going arnd helping different things.
for like, 10 mins, and then i go somewhere else.
haha.

tml going bugis with ger.
blah.

today's napfa was good.
i guess.
everything was c and above.
and i actually improved on my shuttle run.
which is a miracle.
so now i'm left with 2.4km run.
let's all pray that it doesnt rain on that day.
which i believe it will.

tml is sports day.
and everything will be totally screwed.
because up till now, i havent settle the refreshment stuff.
and i still dont know whether we need to meet mdm liang.
i'm such a screwed i.c.

i think i'm too numb.
it's been too long.

maths test was easy la.
i pity the ppl who didnt take this test.
whew. still tot it'll be ultra difficult.

now i'm worrying for my a maths.
damn. one test after another.
and then it'll be mid-year soon.

hey. i'm really ok.
so dont worry yeah.
just becos you dont treat me as a friend anymore doesnt mean i'll do something silly.
or maybe your definition of friendship is different from mine.
becos i find it insulting.
do you really think i'll commit suicide over something so minor.
my life means more to me than that.
so no worries.
you can go ahead with your life all you want.
and i'll just lead my own simple life.

i really dont get what's happening.
every next day after we meet,
we stop talking.
it's getting to be like an routine.
and i hate it.
but i cant do anything about it.
maybe it's my fault.
i'm holding on to something that was not meant to be mine.
it's time to let go.

think FRAGILE will be damn disgusting.
everybody's saying it's bloody scary.
i hate horror movies.
bleahs.

history was ok except for that last question.
i didnt even study that at all.
i studied like crazy for the collectivisation and the purges and nothing about it came out.
freaking god.
hope i'll pass.

i realise my maths really sucked.
i dont even know how to sketch the graph thing.
and i think it's simple.
wtf.

later going eugene house study and play pool.
hope i dont flunk history again.

i dont know what you want me to do anymore.
i cant stand your mood swings and your so-called good intentions.
they sucked.
does my doing bad in one result slip undo all my hardwork.
one so-called failure according to you and i'm like so low-life creature to you.
i dont think my results are that bad.
why do you have to make such a big fuss.
isnt it enough that i'm already feeling sorry for myself.
you think i wont work hard till you kick my ass?
just go fuck off and leave me alone.
i dont need you to come crying on the phone and trying to make me guilty.
stop telling me that you're just as stressed as me,
becos you never understood how i felt.
you werent with me for all these years.
you werent there when i experienced my ups and downs.
i cried my tears alone.
what right do you have to comment.
just becos you pay for my everything doesnt mean i owe you my life.
i freaking hate you and your attitude.


PS: AND THANKS TO ALL THOSE BUSYBODIES WHO MADE MY LIFE MISERABLE FOR ME.

YOU SUCK.