today is just a fucked up day.
screw the periods that come every month.
screw the dumb bio lessons for making me slpy.
screw the freaking a maths which i know nothing about.
screw the non-stop rain.
screw ms chan for being such a bitch.
screw you for saying never mind.
and screw you for disappointing me.

i should have went to dar's house aft sch.
at least she can entertain me and half the things wont happen.
and i think i spoiled her mood too.
cos i was mood swinging the whole damn day.

i wanted to change blogskin.
and i saw cheeling's.
and i freaking like it la.
hahaha.
but nvm la.
gonna hop around ltr.
hope i can find something nice ba.

i enjoyed myself so much ytd.
then you went and say those things.
and when i sms-ed you about it.
you just dismissed it with "i've tried already".
then why must you say it in the first place.

why cant you tell when i'm in a bad mood.
why cant you see that i dont mean half the things i say when i'm not in a good mood.

and there's the fucking up-coming history test.

ok.i'm seriously freaking full now.cos it's my cousin's birthday,and there's so much food.but somehow i dont think his happy birthday is very happy la.it's kinda boring.and i'm watching tv.so you can actually imagine how it is.

and i think there's an english tml.cos everybody tells me there is.but ms ow and keith wong never mentioned anything.see.i feel that tagore is like some lost child,and we're being kicked around by ms ow and keith wong.so i think we're like,doing very random things.and we arent even aware that there's a test.

what is going to happen to the gray area?

seriously,how many times do you want me to cry over such a thing.i dont even see what's the deal about.and you have to get so many ppl to scold me from last night till now.dont you think you're overreacting to make the whole world know?i mean,they're in china AND they called to scold me when i dont even see the problem.everything that happens is my fault.and my life doesnt matter,i only need to do whatever pleases you,is that what you're trying to say.yeah,you're sick,but that doesnt give you the right to be so fucking demanding.

and a maths is making me go crazy too.i flip open the book and out of the 7 questions,i only know one.it's freaking pathetic.and it means that i will have to go copy it again tml.mrs koh is making my life hell.

and suddenly i miss germaine.hahaha.i want to see her stupid actions to cheer me up.

i was gonna blog this really long post about how i'm in a super good mood day.cos today had been a bright and happy day.but i'm totally not in the mood anymore.this is what i hate most about coming home.

some ppl are just so clueless.they think that they are the one experiencing all the trouble and the world revolves around them.and everybody else must do their best to make them happy.i mean,seriously cant you see that i'm tired and i'm stressed out.and you still have to go around doubting me.and when i tried to explain.you think i'm screaming at you.please.go check the dictionary or something for the meaning of screaming.stop trying to screw my life further.

and you're blaming me for not helping around the house.HELLO.i get home so late everyday.and i've got thousands of things to do.and i'm seriously tired.and you expect me to help you clean the house or something AT NIGHT.just go fuck yourself.

and why is it that whenever we quarrel.i'm the one at fault.just because she's a grown up doesnt mean that she's very reasonable or what ok.yeah,i'm the kid,does that necessarily mean that i'm the one that's being demanding and everything.i didnt start the fight.thank you very much.

you want me to always be home.then cant you make coming home happier for me.i hate to come home because it's even more tiring than being with my friends.i still have to entertain you and give in to you all the time.i'm so sick and tired of it already.cant you even think about how i feel for once.

and.glad that we finally talked about it.but i'm not sure if he gets my point or not.somehow i think he dont get la.and somehow i think back ah,the things he said got no main point also.so up to now,i still dont know what he wants.and germaine was asking me if he went to poly and found a new girlfriend or something,how would i feel.but yeah,i made my decision and i'm gonna stick to it la.maybe i'm being selfish in some ways.cos i want him to be around,but i'm not promising anything.

ok.i decided not to watch dreamgirls anymore.germaine say it totally sucks,and i trust her taste la.and i think it'll turn out to be something like high school musical.and i'm not crazy over that.and germaine sayd that the paris something is for couples,hahaha,so dont know whether in the end she got go watch with me or not.

ok.littlest things is really very nice.
for the lyrics.please visit germaine foo's blog.
shit.i'm totally being brainwashed by germaine.
hahahaha.

some ppl are just overly paranoid.
does lighting matchstick mean tt ppl are trying to set the sch on fire.
does it mean tt they're trying to burn their school mates?
does the ppl involve really need to get soooooooo much punishments
which actually includes public caning,counselling,8 demerits,detention,and calling of parents.
i mean,you compare this to all the other serious offences
and you can see how minor this is.
and she's actually accusing my class of so much things.
yeah,maybe i shouldnt be so worked up cos i'm not actually involved.
but it's my class and i think that she's totally biased.
cant she just leave us alone.
and i totally pity those ppl whose hair got cut.
if it's me,i'll totally freak out.

and so.i reported sick for pe for nothing,
cos she screamed at us for the whole of pe.
and she claims that it's the whole classes fault.

so like,there's band tml.
and it's masree.
and i dun like him to be there.
i prefer mr chew.when he's not calling me OCD la.
i mean,seriously it's not very funny to me la.

gotta find the chinese proverb thing tml.
i hate the ginger too.

we cancelled our beach trip.
due to unforeseen circumstances.
haha.and we went to cineplex to watch the protege.
germaine wanted to watch just follow law at first.
luckily we didnt.hahaha.
the protege totally totally rocked.
it's so funny and amusing and scary and shocking and disgusting.
and we couldnt stop laughing about the broken hand part even after the movie.
everybody must have tot tt we were crazy or something.
and gu tian le was damn disgusting in the show.
totally image-spoiling.
and germaine was so glad tt she managed to sneak in.
and so she couldnt stop laughing again.

and today must have been her bad day.
cos she keep doing those reeeeeeally stupid things.
like spilling her mountain dew.
hahahaha.
and i had cramps the whole day.
so i wasnt any better off.

anw tml sch's starting already.
and i still got so much hmwk to do.
there's a maths, e maths, and chinese.
and when i look at the big pile it makes.
i want to faint.

dont take drugs. it's bad.

the shows on tv are pathetic.
i'm already staying at home.
and i still have to bore myself to death with the stupid shows.
i mean, how many times do you wanna watch somebody cooking.
or some freaking cartoon tt makes no sense.
or some act cute ppl pretending tt they're so high about cny.
can mediacorp show some nice shows for ONCE.

tml going beach with germaines.
and i'm still thinking about what i should wear.
cos i dun want to come back and be black all over.
i wanna go buy sunblock.
but all the shops are closed.

the bio test is postponed to friday.
thank goodness.
but the bad news is tt
napok says tt he think i got 8.5 marks for bio.
tt's like, not even 1/4 of the total marks.
it's truly pathetic.
and seriously i think no one is getting lower than me.
and i have to go see ms tan.
shit.

happy cny people! =)
it's a brand new year again. :D

i'm left with like, 15 mins of sheng ri kuai le before i finish the whole show.
ok la. not bad la.
but the storyline abit slow.
and there's so much kissing scene.
but i still dont understand why they didnt get tgt in the first place.
i mean, they like each other.
why must the girl be so insecure la.
but maybe it's the guy's fault la.
but even though they've broken up.
it doesnt seem tt way.
so i totally dun understand why they both must be so stubborn.
hahaha.

(edited)
i hate today.
it's reunion dinner day.
and it's just gonna be one of those hypocritic days
where i hate you so much and i'm still smiling at you.
and i'm smiling at you but fucking stabbing you behind your back.
(/edited)

i'm so tired.
i havent had a good nights slp for the whole week le.
and my ahma had to wake me up so early today.
cos she want to do last bit of spring cleaning.

ytd reached home so late.
almost 11 le.
all zy's fault la.
i walking to the bus stop and i wasnt looking.
and he just jumped out from no where and totally freaked me out.
and i missed my bus becos of tt.
and the next bus took forever to come.
and i didnt hae enough money for cab le.
so had to wait.
totally sucks.

went k box with weiting.
cos k garden full le.
hahaha.damn rock la ytd.
cos we only 2 person.
then no need share mic.
shuang like hell.
i wanna go again soon. =)

i think i went sch ytd for nothing.
the only thing i did related to academics was the chem exp.
which i totally screwed up.
then went for band for the rest of the day.
the performance was ok.
much better than tues la.
hahaha.

i dont get what's your problem.
yeah. i know i ps-ed on tues.
but i didnt mean to.
it was becos of the cny rehearsal tt's why.
it's not like i backed out on you to go out with someone else or what.
and since last wk, weiting alrdy told me to go out last week.
so i couldnt possibly tell her i dun want alrd so tt i can go out with you.
if i did tt, wouldnt i be ps-ing her too.
and i tried to apologise to you so many times,
and you still insist on being angry with me.
i tried to set another date with you.
but you want me to reach home so uber late when i told you i cant?
i think you're totally not trying to understand me and what i'm going through.
and if you see this and feel offended.
i'm sorry.
but tt's how i feel.

thanks tc for the roses and the bear.
totally love it.<3

ok.today is just not my day too.
first i found out that i flunked my chem test.
and real badly.when i actually thought tt i knew how to do the paper.
then i got demerit tgt with germaine.
cos we were passing notes during lecture.
but now it seems quite funny la.
then it RAINED when i got out of school.
and there's bio ssp after sch tml.
and we gotta bring full band u for the performance tml.
everything just piled up and sucked.

and the worst thing is.
i cant seem to sign in to msn.
and i've been trying very hard for the past one hour.

i finally watched episode 13.
hahaha.
took me so long.
but sad. no episode 14 this week.

and i still haven gotten my v day present for him.
and he's like, coming back to zhss tml.
i've got no time to go and get anything.

you're totally confusing me.

i hate msn.

yesterday sucked.
i hate the stupid fire drill.
and i hate the cny rehearsal.
and i hate the video taking the most.
ytd was the most miserable day of my life.
my life is so tragic.
hahahaha.

and today wasnt any better.
cos band was total shitness.
ms chan sucked.
she's totally biased against us.
and she was telling ms talib that she have to know us.
HAHAHAHA.thank you thank you.

HAPPY V DAY.
hahahaha.
thanks to all those people who gave me presents.
love ya lots.
muacks.

band was madness.
my mouth was numbed aft practice ended.
i mean,does mr masree have to go on and on and on without stopping.
and i'm so sick and tired of tt song already.

after tt went marina with germaine.
she bought her top.
and i bought my pouch and the pumps' socks.
my next target: the pink panther wallet.
=)

and germaine should change school.
hahahaha.
cos the fengshui person say it's not good for her to wear white.
and she's damn promblematic.
hahaha.

heard he sprained his leg.
dont know what happen to him also.
didnt talk to him for so long le.
i dont even know what is going on in his life anymore.
hope he gets better.
and hope he'll do well for his exam and the competition.
i seriously miss him.

news of the day: i got a1 for my o level chinese.
yeah. i'm happy.
but the happiness is starting to wear off already.

and ms ow is seriously mean.
she doesnt want to return me my tie because she said that i PROMISED her that i'll wear that elastic hairband but i didnt.
i mean, i didnt even say anything like that.
and she doest approve of my hairstyle cos i used 5 pins instead of 4.
which was ONE more than what was allowed by the school.

maths test was ok.
i'm still quite blur about the topic.
though it's supposed to be easy.

getting 1.0 for all 9 subjects is crazy.
it's like, impossible.
the school should stop having such high expectations.
i mean, T score doesnt prove anything.

ok.joke of the day:
if dinesh is a chocolate.what is dinesh under the hot sun.

answer: FONDUE. (laugh please. =])

today was hell.
the whole day began off with the hcl test.
which was like, so freaking difficult.
why cant our paper just be the same as the other classes.
then it got worse with the geog paper.
cos i totally misread the question.
or rather,i didnt even read the question.
so i got the whole thing wrong.
and i wasted all my efforts rushing and writing.
wtf.
and then ms ow had to go and confiscate my tie.
i mean,it's not like i desperately want to stay in council.
but she's just catching me cos she's pms-ing.
she caught me for
1.my hair(which i was trying to grow.and she told me to use those elastic hairband that goes around your head totally.those ones that the black americans use)
2.my earrings(which was a stud and TOTALLY approved by the school rules)
3.my fingernails(which she thought i painted but i didnt)
4.my skirt(which was not even short)
5.my socks(HELLO?!if my socks are low.nobody's socks are considered acceptable ok.)
anw.she wants me to go look for her tml.
god knows if she'll ever want to return me my tie.

it's your choice.
you chose it.
so stick with it ad give it your best.
cos i know that no matter what, you still cant let him go.

EPISODE 12 ROCKS!
hahaha.
though i havent see yet.
everybody support hana kimi. =)

finally bought my 'new year clothes' ytd.
cos it was just an excuse to buy more clothes la.
hahaha.
but i'm still happy.
cos i tot i wouldnt be able to find.

saw him ytd. with his girl.
it was awkward la.
so long didnt see him le.

tml is my geog test.
i'm freaking out.

band was ok.
we only like, played two songs for the whole day.
which was crazy.
and i seriously hate that 3/4 bar.
it's so freaking difficult to play AND it's so sharp.

and ppl.go listen to tank's new album.
it totally rocked.
i'm going crazy over him right now.
hahaha.

and i just realise that we're getting back our o level chinese result next friday.
germaine just told me today.
omg. make me so jin zhang.
hahaha.

it's going to be v day soon. =)

ok. happy things first.
i think it'll be over by tml or sunday.
so hey ppl, i'll stop mood swinging by then.
hahaha.

and dinesh is so irritating today lorr.
i think he wanna get back at me or something.
i was already struggling with my maths.
and he had to keep buzzing beside me.
hahaha.
nvm. monday will be my turn.

anw. we didnt turn up for band today.
but seriously, we planned to go.
but we just couldnt find them la.
then in the end decided not to go alrd.

then went to talk and stuff. =)
love my girlfriends lots. <3

my ideal v day present: my perfect guy in gift wrapping.

seriously. i totally dont get your problem.
you're like,exaggerating everything
and saying it in such a way that YOU are the one that is always correct.
you're so noble. you're so nice.
well, ok. if you seriously feel that way.

so what if the N class doesnt like me.
and seriously. i dont get what you mean by the N class when i think it's only your group of friends who feels that way.
you're the one who seem to hate me the most.
sorry if you think i'm pushing all the blame to you.
most of them werent even my friends to begin with.
so it doesnt matter to me what you all think of me.
cos it doesnt affect my life in anyway.
it's pathetic that i cant even hate you like some of my friends do.
i just feel so saddened that our 'friendship' had to turn out this way.
i thought our friendship was true.
but maybe i was just too naive.