suddenly i've got no mood to blog about ytd.so i should skip it.

and this few days is really bad.cos i've got terrible cramps and it's killing me.and i cant even slp properly,cos i have to wake up half way to eat medicine so tt the cramps will stop waking me up.

and like,i failed 3 subjects.and mr lee doesnt even want to let me see my PPR.and then tt thing happened and made my mood worse.and i still cant believe i cried over it ytd.but thanks a lot xiao di,for cheering me up.and for that super long sms that ask me not to think tt i'm stupid.

and something is making my mood even worse.argh.

sports day was ...i cant find a word to describe it.i was going to say that it was horrible cos it was hot and humid and i was sticky and sweaty and we all took turns having mood swings.but it's my last sports day in zh.so i'm not complaining.=]

aft went mac.and aft joshua left i talked t my gf.so long since we had a serious talk alr.hahaha.and i finally know her secret alr.and seriously i think she's so lucky la.

there's this performance somewhere in srg tml.and i think it's going to be lame,and another hot and humid and sweaty day again.but well,it's our last performance before SYF.and after tt,NO MORE BAND alr.hahaha.not tt i hate band a lot la.seriously i think i'm liking band more nowadays.maybe cos mr chew dont hate us anymore.

and then we're going shopping on SUNDAY.yay man.i'm so excited la.i just wish that some money can germinate and grow inside my wallet so that i can spend la.and i gotta go get my multi purpose solution soon.so like,i still have to keep money aside for tt.

and i needa find a time to go take passport photo.i hate taking passport photos.

i'm seriously pissed with the comp today.not only is it lagging,but it only lets me type when it wants to,and the screen size changes whenever i try to scroll.so i've been spending the past 40 mins trying to access my blog.

the weather todays was damn sickening.i mean,i could practically superglue myself to my frens la,everyone is so sticky.

and i think peer tutoring sucks.the questions are so difficult and it's demoralising me.plus,it means that i can only take lunch at 5 o clock cos there's assembly before that.
but anyway.TAGORE WON THE DEBATE.hahaha.although i'm not one of the debators la.but it's my BAND ok.hahaha.

and like,i'm getting my first A2 for english.but it seems like practically everybody is getting A1 or A2 la.but i get so depressed looking at my other results.cos i failed my 2nd bio test.again.

and i hope the A maths test will be well cos i dont want to fail yet another test again.plus,i hope tt i get the last question correct cos it's actually from the FYS,and i did do my holiday homework.and it's like,almost 1/3 of the marks.so i'm praying hard for myself.

i just heard from jason that for the band ppl,napfa is on thurs.omg.i'm so totally unprepared.and it's my last napfa in zh.

i promised i'll pray for eugene.so eugene,hahaha,i'll pray for you.

i didnt know it was so painful for you to send me home.i didnt know you had so little confidence in me.i didnt know that you thought i treated you so badly.guess there were a lot of things that i didnt know.and part of me still thought that you will call me and tell me tt it didnt happen.but i guess i thought that you would be like j and always end the fight first.i just cant get over what you said,after everything about 'we'll see next time' when i told you i'll make you sad.maybe tt time we should have settled everything instead of just waiting to see.cos it's like you get unhappy with everything i do.i always causes you to be sad.and nothing changes.

and you still wanna meet ltr,although i dont know why.cos i dont feel like facing you know and there's practically nothing to talk about.it's just a simple whether you meant it or not.

and my hmwk is still rotting.so i dont think i'll be able to come online tonight.

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i think my tt one is coming very very soon.cos i'm having non-stop cramps.and it's so painful it's killing me.and THEN,he still has to get angry,or sad,whatever,with me at this time.cant he even choose a nicer timing?and he's making me feel so bloody guilty and hurt.i mean,the words you said cant be taken back.it's THERE already.i dont care whether you only mean it for a while or what.but you SAID it.to my face.i told myself that i will never f let a guy talk to me like tt without screaming at him back.and you out of all ppl have to be the first one to do tt.
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i'm suddenly in a very emo mood now.everything feels so sian.and i dun even feel like replying any messages.and i'm so freaking tired.and everybody is being so f demanding.

so like,band was ok.mr chew didnt scream at us,which is heng-ness.then went j8 with germ afterwards.i bought my stuff and she bought her stuff.and now my wallet is practically empty.and i'm thinking of whether to watch mr bean or not.cos the cinema area there was so crowded today.and the first showtime was sold out and the 4 following tt was all selling fast.total madness.

no more learning carnival already.no more running around srg.no more uncountable breaks.no more movie screening.cos...it's my last learning carnival!

haha.but the movie was ok.i mean,for a war movie it's counted as not bad alr.but the scenes are either boring or gross.and it was damn cold inside.i was practically freezing.

i hope i can sleep very well tml.cos i've got a maths test on monday which i need to study for.and i've got thousands of hmwk.

shit.i'm gonna miss tml's episode.i'm not sure what's the show name in eng.but it's tt 7pm show on channel 8 la.and tml's ep is so exciting can.the boyfren actually turned against her,but i think is just to put on show cos the evil woman was watching la.but in the end he got killed by this guy tt likes the evil woman.but nvm,i shouldnt be addicted to tv shows.

today was ok ba.morning was damn sian.aft the creativity challenge thing was this motivational talk by the principal.except that its not motivational at all.and she asked us to set targets tt are higher than those expected of us,or else we would have wasted 4 years in zh.but since my expected MSG is 1.0 and my expected grade is all A1,i dont think it's possible to achieve.so like,yeah,i've wasted 4 years in zh.

then there was this music appreciation thing in the afternoon.turned out better than i thought.esp cos the person keeps smiling and reminds me of rachel.

and i'm sort of happy.? o.0? cos i expected to get 2/20 for the quiz.but in the end i got 5/20.but i think i'm still the lowest in class.but yeah,at least i did better than i expected.

think we're gonna do the lost in srg thing.cos shirlynn thinks its fun,so dun think we'll get to slack.i cant wait for iwo jima tml.and we're gonna go eat aft tt.=]

and yes,you arent imagining things.the skin is back.after one day of rest.cos i keep thinking of what napok said.and i had to redo the whole format again.but yay! finally finished.=]

seriously i'm so sick and tired of it alr.it's not like it's the only way my life can go.

my back hurts like crazy.cos tt time after i went to see my uncle it didnt get a lot better.so i went to see him again and he went to ba guan for me again.so now i've got 13 freaking circles on my back and it looks damn ugly.yeah,anw,i feel like my whole back is bruised,so now like even when i wear bra it's painful,cos the back strap is cutting into the blue-black.

tml is learning carnival.and so many ppl arent going to school.but seriously the activities are quite bo liao la.like the motivational talk by the principal,i mean,is she really that motivating.and for the sec 4s it's lost in serangoon this year,i mean,seriously,i wont get lost in serangoon.and i'm only looking forward to the movie thing cos it seems like the only interesting thing.but yeah,since we're missing 2 days of school it's good la.and napok finished his hmwk alr.so it's like hols for him.

hahaha.and i'm seriously touched after reading germaine's blog.didnt know she appreciate me so much.ahahaha.but i'm nice la.so canort blame.

music and lyric is nice.i love the songs.=]

p/s:napok is making me so depressed.cos he say this skin aint nice.but i deleted the old one alr.=(

it's sunday morning already.and i'm feeling damn depressed.cos today's the last day of hols.and i gotta rush my hmwk like crazy.and well,i'm sick.like,wtf.

went to see my uncle about my back last night.cos it's been killing me for the past few days,and i dont even know why it's so painful.so like,he said my backbone was out of place,so he was helping me push it back into place.and,it's so FUCKINGLY painful.i almost died there.and then he help me to ba guan,i dont know what it's called in eng.it's still painful la,but the pain is so minor compared to the adjusting backbone part.

so like,i dont know whether it's because of that.cos half way when i was slping,i felt really weid.cos my stomach was so queesy(is tt how you spell it.o.0?)and i felt like vomitting.so i had to wake up in the middle of the night to go and eat medicine.and now i so totally dont wanna do my hmwk.but if i dont hand it in,mrs koh will eat me alive.

Hey, hey,
You, you,
I don't like your girlfriend,
No way, no way,
Think you need a new one,
Hey, hey,
You, you,
I could be your girlfriend,
Hey, hey,
You, you,
I know that you like me,
No way, no way,
No its not a secret,
Hey, hey,
You, you,
I want to be your girlfriend.

You're so fine,
I want you; mine,
You're so delicious,
I think about you all the time,
You're so addictive,
Don't you know what I can do,
To make you feel alright?
Don't pretend, I think you know,
I'm damn precious,
And Hell yea,
I'm the MotherFuckin' Princess,
I can tell you like me too,
And you know I'm right.

She's like "So, whatever",
You could do so much better,
I think we should get together now,
(And that's what everyone's talkin about)

(chorus).

I can see the way,
I see the way you look at me,
And even when you look away,
I know you think of me,
I know you talk about me all the time,
Again and again,
So come over here,
And tell me what I wanna hear,
Better yet, make your girlfriend dissapear,
I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again (again and again and again).

'Cause...
She's like "So, whatever",
You could do so much better,
I think we should get together now,
(And that's what everyone's talkin about)

(chorus).

(Oh)
In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger,
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better,
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid, what the Hell were you thinkin'?
(Oh)
In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger,
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better,
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid, what the Hell were you thinkin'?

(chorus)



ok.'girlfriend' is seriously nice.
credits to germaine.
hahaha.

so like,i woke up damn early today.cos we have band,and there's some exchange program.so gotta get there early.but seriously,the sectionals was plain weird.i dont even know what t do.luckily tt guy took over.or we would have continued standing there like some dumb idiots.afternoon was funny.i like mr.nonami.he's soooooooooo cute.i wish he was my grandfather.hahaha.

and seriously sometimes i get so sick of you.why do you say things that you dont mean and still act like nothing has happened.

should i watch 'i'm a cyborg but tt's ok"?

ok.fuck.the lamp is spoilt.so i'm like,using the comp in the dark.and it's damn sickening cos it makes my eyes so tired.and to add on to tt,the pages are loading super slow today for some unknown reason.

anw.my cousin is doing his maths now.i think.and he keeps saying "i dont GET it.i dont GET it".hahaha.i dont get it either.maths is so freaking difficult.

went to watch the pursuit of happyness.it's nice.but somehow i expected it to be more touching la.but yeah,it made me realise that i'm very fortunate and i should appreciate it more.

and i went to eat pasta!hahaha.so long never eat le.cream sauce is nice.=]

went to his blog see just now.cos just rmb-ed very long never go le.and i saw his tag.it made me think a lot la.cos maybe last time i really quite dependent on him,and along the way i hurt him a lot la.but anw now he got his girl le,so wish them good luck ba.

i miss my dar dar.germaine.WHERE ARE YOU!?! hahaha.

the bio ssp was cancelled,cos ms tan is sick.so like,i totally got up early for nothing.so in the end i pei-ed clar to srg north to see doctor,cos she has a wart on her leg,and like,hahaha,we keep taking photos like 2 idiots.

and i think my a maths is getting worse.i only knew how to do 1 question out of 4,and tt question only carries 2 marks out of 20.so like,mrs koh is so going to come after me.i can already imagine myself sitting with her at the stone table outside the classroom.why must my maths be so sucky.

after went town.it's been ages since we went out tgt alr,but yz counldnt make it.and it's so depressing,cos like,everybody bought something except me.at first it was me and shirlynn,but shirlynn actually bought her dorothy perkins top after i left.hahaha.but it's ok.i'm contented with the stuff i bought on monday alr.

i cant go support jac on sat!i'm so sad la.i wanna go watch her sing.but i've got freaking band the whole day.but i think practically half the class is going down to support her.hope she gets in ba.

so like,today band sucked.it was ok with mr masree.and then mr chew came and he was so sarcastic with us.think he's too stressed up or something.but anw,i think i'm going for the sectionals on friday.at least for a while.gonna go call germaine ltr to confirm with her.

haha.and i still miss monday.the shopping was crazy,i almost broke my leg.and we did some freaking stupid stuff that's so funny,but i suddenly dont feel like elaborating.then went over to germaine's house to stay over,but guess we didnt really managed to talk much.so wasted la,but i was so tired i dont even rmb half of the things that i said.all i can rmb is germaine trying to slp on the same bed as me cos she thinks it's more cosy tt way.hahaha.and her hair is damn prickly,you'll know if she ever try to snuggle up to you.(ok,this make us sound so les.=])but anw,i guess the staying up was ... i cant find any word to describe it.cos i've got so freaking much pimples now,big and small,and i think it's cos i stayed up too late.and anw germaine is really really lazy.she took forever to get up lorr.luckily we set the alarm super early.

i seriously need to find someone with an unwanted e maths fys.cos i seriously cant find mine,and i cant buy a new one cos it's not in stock anymore.and like,i dont know whether i can go photocopy the whole book,cos is there any copyright issue in the first place?i'm not sure.

and i'm still not sure if i want to go to the class gathering.cos i'm only going if eugene is going.but he's taking forever to decide.so i cant decide either.but then i have to find a way to kill like,4 hours before the class gathering.cos i'll be outside but i dont want to wander around like some aimless ghost.wanted to call kh to pei me in the first place,but somehow i feel quite bad if i actually asked him.

and there's like,2 ssp tml,one after the other.it's totally totally crazy.i mean,how can we have such a long bio lesson,and straight after,have another long a maths lesson.i think i'll faint.my bio file is still in school,i dont know how to do the content page,and i havent studied for the a maths quiz tml.and i havent even been getting much slp this few days.and i have to get up at 7 again tml.it's like i get even less slp during the hols.

and i was actually quite hurt by nicholas' sms ytd.and at that moment i was quite angry la.cos he made me sound like some unreasonable spoilt bitch who's so stucked up.but i guess we're ok alr?so i'm just waiting for him to confirm with me about tue.but yeah,maybe he cant again.

and regarding my last post.my cousin DIDNT see me holding hands with a guy alright.he's just trying to get me into trouble.haha.but i guess everybody misread it.

at that moment i was quite touched.
but i expected this outcome alr.
but somehow it doesnt lessen the disappointment.

i dont know whether i should dread tml.or rejoice that i'm finally going shopping,with money.i mean,if one of us start to get f-ed up,the whole day will be down the drain.and somehow i think i'll die during ssp on tue,since i'm gonna stay ove at germaine's house and it's quite clear that we;re not going to slp much.BUT,when i think of the clothes and the shoes that i can finally get,i feel so bloody happy.

and i'm gonna try to convince germaine to wake up at 830 on tues and pei me go get breakfast.but i think she'll kill me before she agree.and i think she's gonna use superglue to stick herself to her bed on tues.so there's no way i can pull her up.

and i think my cousin is just being so stuck up.i step into his house,and he has to ask me."you went out today right?you were wearing a purple top right?you were with a guy right?dont bluff me lorr.i saw you holding hands with him"

i mean.HELLO.which eye did you actually see that.and you're saying such things in front of my aunt.how much trouble do you want to get me into.luckily my ahma wasnt around.or hell will break loose.

i missed the comp.i miss my blog.i miss friendster.i miss msn messenger.hahaha.and because of my laziness,my blogskin has exceeded its bandwidth.so i have to change it again.sadded.

and i didnt even find any stud or earring today.gonna go look for it again on monday.hahaha.and not forgetting my shoes and tops also.

and something that's totally depressing is that i actually have to go to school 5 out of 6 days.i've got totally no life AND no holiday.and i'm so sick of a maths already.

and this is a note to whoever that took my E maths FYS.pls please PLEASE return it to me.i know my books are very nice,and you like it a lot.but it's out of stock already,so i cant get a new copy.and i dont wanna fail my e maths when o level comes.

and i wanna catch this movies.
stomp the yard
the pursuit of happiness.
happily never after
Letters from Iwo Jima
=)
it's a lot i know.and i dont think i'll be able to watch everything.

i've got totally no mood to blog.
it's been such a long and tiring day.
and i've still got so long to go b4 i can actually go to slp.
and why is it tt i managed to fail so many tests even though i actually studied.

ok.i'm totally not supposed to be blogging right now.cos i've got bio and a maths to do.AND i've got tt freaking hcl test and the vocab test to study for.and i know she's gonna get on my back if i dont score well again.i mean,she's got one chujun and one siangling.tt's enough already right.

and i dun understand why we take so damn long and still have no conclusion about the class tee/jersey.if you want a jersey,why cant you just go check it out then tell the class.why are you just sitting there doing nothing and just complaining when jac is doing so much work already.

sometimes i get sick of listening to the same thing.and there's actually nothing i can do about it.

my hair is like,growing 0.01cm every month.so it's like totally not growing at all.why cant it just grow fast so tt i can have long hair again.

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sometimes i dont know what is going on between us and what is going to happen.i dont know what you want and sometimes i just feel so uncertain.i just dont like this feeling.
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i'm fed up.cos i changed my blogskin.but when i view it on opera there's actually something wrong with the bg,but when i view it in explorer it's ok.so i'm sure isit the bg's prob or opera's fault.but,yeah,i've decided to forget about it.

i just checked my hmwk.and i'm totally freaking out.there's so much a maths (and i dont even know how to do) and there's so much chinese.and there's still e maths FYS.dont understand why there must be so much hmwk.

and the worst thing is i actually have a f-ing a maths test tml.i'm so going to flunk it.somebody save me pls.save me and i'll love you.=)

there's actually so much test next wk.why cant the sch spread all the test out.why must they cram everything in the same wk?

and thanks for sending me tt email.although it was a bit awkward reading it.at least i know that you care.

i'm staying home the whole day to mug.i'm so nice.=)

band was ok.woked up damn early for the bio ssp.and i'm like,so freaking tired.buti'm happy,cos my instrument finally finally repaired le! so i proved my innocence that it's actually not my playing skill that sucked.wahahahaha.

and i bought this gigantic clip tgt with germaine.and i think i seriously love germaine alot.hahahaha.but i'm not turning les ok.she's my bestie.=) and today was so paiseh lorr.i actually kicked a bucket of water inside this pet store.and germaine keep asking me to own up.she's so irritating.

i dont know whether i should have asked in the first place.cos i'm not sure if i really want to know.