today is the last day of the year.go do something wild.
go kiss someone at midnight.

was on the phone with christ and judy ytd,and they said everybody is to wear stripes tmr. -.- i dont want la.hahaha.and ju says she's going to give me a new year kiss if i'm staying for the countdown,save it for your boyfriend la!later he jealous.hahaha.

and i think christ's brother is bringing his friends over too.then it'll be like her housewarming tt time.imagine so many ppl squeezed into one house.

and this year's coming to an end alr.i'm sad la.there's been so much happening this year and i dont ever want to move on la.but it's like,we're all going separate ways alr,and 4e3'07 can only exist in memory from now on.

and i cant believe i cried last night,it's like real dumb la.but somehow i felt like i was drifting away from so many ppl.we used to be like,oh-so-close,and we shared everything.we crapped and laughed so much,and now it's a total different case.i dont even know what's going on in their life anymore,i felt like i didnt even knew them anymore.and it was damn depressing.

and anw i seriously think ISWAK2 is lame.ISWAK 1 was much much better la.

i went to cut my hair today.and now my fringe is like,damn damn short.ok.i want my fringe back.

anw germaine baby put her braces alr.doesnt really seem any different today la.but she's damn irritating.cos she keeps asking whether she looked uglier and cuter,and she keep complaining that it hurts.hahaha.

should i really care that much?

i know i may be difficult,
but you know i have my insecurities,and you're not doing anything about it.
you said you wanted a positive answer,but how much do you actually want it.

went out with bestfs today,wanted to get my school stuffs.aft tt germaine lee left and germaine foo and me went to esprit to talk.hahaha.tt's like our signature place alr,half of our pics were taken there i think.but anw i cant upload the pics cos there's something wrong with my data cable.

and anw i realise most of my problems are the same with germaine's.i mean,except tt she's going to make her braces today and i'm not la.hahaha.i'm worried for her!hope she wont die from the pain,and she's worried that she'll look ugly with her braces.but i realise i really trust her a lot la,hahaha,tt explains why i always listen to her.

and anw i only bought shoes today,wanted to buy my school bag too,but didnt managed to.actually there were two tt i like la,there's this black sling bag from kappa that i think is nice,but it's out of stock.then there's this brown and white bag from everlast,but i didnt bring enough money,so couldnt get tt either.i dont think i'll be able to buy one before sch starts le.

and anw the vj person called me today,and supposedly i'm in this group called "i1,1" and this sub group called iden.sounds weird i know.i wonder if i heard wrongly or something.but at least the girl tt called me sounded real friendly.


the lyrics from because i'm a girl,i think is translated by tt person or something,but yeah,think it's quite true.but tt's not what's going on in my life right now la.
because i'm a girl,to whom love is everything,
they say that when you give a guy all he wants he quickly gets bored.
and now i know that's the truth,
and although i tell myself,i'll never be tricked by love again,
i fall in love,and my heart is broken again,
you should have told me that your feelings had faded,
i had no idea,and i continued to depend on you.
although i say i hate you now,i'll be missing you.

oh.my.god.i'm in such an effing bad mood now.

2. You will have to report to the Concourse on the 2nd of January 2008, Wednesday, and register.
3. For HOME tel. numbers ending with 1, 3, 5, 7 or 9 you need to Report at 7:30. As for the rest you will have to report at 8 am.

i got the above from the VJ website.which dear germaine told me to go.and i'm totally regretting it.

i must bloody report at 7:30!i need at least an hour to travel there!and every other zhs person has a home number ending with a even number,so everyone else from zhs is reporting at 8!which bloody means,i have to go to school by myself.tt's the most disgusting news i've heard since this holiday.

i dont want to go to school on my own la!i'll look like some bloody lonely outcast.

i feel like saying the f-word over and over again.

and to top everything off,we have to choose our subject combi by 2 jan.tt's the 2nd bad news today.and i dont even know what the hell is chinese syllabus B,so what am i supposed to put for my second language?

hell,i dont even know what i want my combi to be.i just want to go to school with germaine on the first day. T.T

if VJ sucked i'm going to cry.

ok.i'm going to stop being so miserable and enjoy the remainder of my holidays.

and anw i finally met germaine(s) the other day.damn glad i saw them,missed them like crazy.but yeah,they're just as retarded as ever.hahaha.then went over to germaine's house to stay over,quite pathetic actually,hahaha.we had to share a blanket and her blanket was like,damn small.but yeah,i'm just glad that we get to spend time before going to JC la.

and anw christabel is holding a dinner-cum-party at her house on 31 dec.should i go?

but i really feel like going down to marina square to see the fireworks,or just anywhere else that has fireworks,i havent seen any fireworks this year.

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ok great.for some reason my ahma decided that she doesnt want to cook.and i'm too lazy to go down and buy.so now i have to go without lunch. -.-
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i'm suffering from lack of sleep la!you should see my panda's eyes,it'll freak you out for sure.

ppl.go watch alvin and the chipmunks!the storyline isnt very interesting.but they're like,damn damn damn cute!

esp theodore,omg,i just gave my heart to him.hahaha.i wanna get tt song la.if you have the song,can you send it to me?

dinner was funny.first time ever ever that i had such a long dinner.hahaha.and there's damn much food.

ppl,remember this date, 7 FEBRUARY 2008,kungfu slamdunk is out on tt date!be sure to catch it alright.

jac said,santa,if you cant make me skinny,make my friends fat.
hahaha.i dont wanna be fat la.

where's my happy ending.

i'm emo x 1928973832364753473t275 today.
i aint sure why too.just tt i keep thinking about the what-ifs and the could-haves.

and i realise i'm a damn insecure person.
and the worse thing is,i dont even know what i want.
somebody tell me the answer please.

i'm back from my class chalet!
and wow,it was super duper energy-sucking,and i'm like,damn tired now.
i'm aching all over and i've got muscle cramps.
and i'm coughing like crazy and my flu's killing me.
i cant even breathe through my nose.
can somebody save me?
i dont want to be sick anymore.

i didnt go for the bbq,cos i've got this terrible sore throat.
wanted to meet yc for dinner at first.
then erkee said he and ling is joining us.
so we went for dinner at like,9,hahaha,or maybe it's supper.

the night walk was scary la,but i can act brave when i want to,hahaha.
and i totally want to try out the maze next time.
and jac was like,so angry with us for tricking her.

the chalet was alright la.there wasnt really much to do.
and when ling and i tried to slp,you know what jac and clar did,
THEY SANG!cant even slp in peace.see,such good friends i have.
then in the end,they went to slp in the morning and didnt even wanted to get up when it was time to check out.
but escape was fun.hahaha.totally funny to watch eugene do all those retarded funnily actions.

then went town,bought my tube finally.and ling left.and i left one hour later.

the end.

hahaha.ok.tt sums up my chalet outing.

just a thought,what's with the fascination with ajc.
why does everybody tt is posted to sa want to appeal to aj instead.
it's so damn nerdy and it's not even nice la.
vj is much nicer.hahaha.

i want to sing k,i hope i can get well by saturday. =[

i'm like,damn damn sick.
i think i'm dying lorr.and it's been 1 week alr lorr.
but yuen chi doesnt believe me when i say i cant eat the bbq stuff.
he says i've got 4 days to recover.
and anw he has a hamster.can you imagine tt? -.-

and i got posted to vj.and yeah.i'm happy.
btu i'm also like,having so much mixed feelings.
cos the realisation tt i've graduated finally sank in.
and it's like,i'm going to a new sch to meet new ppl.
who knows if they'll turn out to be nice.

and ling is going to sa. =( i'm sad la.
it's like,hey,we were in the same class for 8 years eh.napok too.
and suddenly,i wont see her in class anymore.
i'll miss her spastic smile la.

and how do you go the chalet form pasir ris mrt?
i forgot.

The greatest irony of love

Loving the right person at the wrong time,
Having the wrong person when the time is right,
And finding out you love someone right after
That person walks out of your life.

And sometimes, you think you're already over a person,
Until you see them smile at you again,
You'll suddenly realize that you're really not.

For some, they think that letting go is one way
Of expressing how much you love the person,
By sacrificing your happiness for theirs,
Without realizing that the other person's
Doing the same thing for them.

Most relationships tend to fail
Not because of the absence of love;
Love is always present,
It's just that one is being loved too much
And the other was being loved too little.

We always fall in love with the person we think we love,
Only to discover that what we loved about them fades.
Bad experiences are always remembered,
But it's the wonderful memories that are captured
To remind us that there are brighter days ahead
And that happiness exists.

You need to learn to let go when you're hurting too much,
Realize that sometimes love just isn't enough
And accept the fact that things aren't always gonna be the same.

There is someone out there who will love you more.
It's all the thought you put into your decisions
That impairs your judgement
When your heart already knows what you need to do.

Listen to your heart. Even though it's on the left side, it's always right.


i was clearing my inbox and i came across this email weirong sent me at the beginning of this year.
and it just brought back so much memories.
all the happy and unhappy things tt happened.
does your heart really tell you what's right?

i think mine doesnt.

ok.i'm totally totally going to die from boredom.
this is like,totally no life at all lorr.
and i'm so dumb to not bring my phone.
and you know what,i'm going to start counting down the days till i'm back in s'pore.

but ok,at least there's some really nice shows on tv.
it helps when you have 80 plus channels i guess.
but it's tiring flicking through all of them.

and i seriously miss everybody. =[

i'm a bit disappointed.
dont make me any more promises please.you arent even keeping any of them.