im aching all over from the training ytd. must've been cos of the one week plus break i had. but the aches feel damn satisfying. (: like im finally working my muscles. thought i almost died when i was doing the jumping jacks/squats/push-ups/crunches.

and i just had another op practice session today. its so lame. junren alr finished his and im still worrying my ass off. and tunn and me just edited the slides again to cut down on some of the words and add in like loads more pictures. and guess what, its now 40mb big. harh. crazy crazy right. im crossing my fingers real hard for 5th nov.

gerald flew off today. and he said something quite dumb before he flew off. when i saw the message i didnt know whether to laugh or roll my eyes. lol. but im gonna miss him. ><

i found a new nice song. (:
带我走到遥远的以后
带走我一个人自转的寂寞
带我走就算我的爱你的自由都将成为泡沫
我不怕带我走

many more outings to come. (:
we shall stay united as a family.

omg im damn embarassed now. ><
the sister's going to hate me for being rude.

knights is THE BOMB.

i know not everyone turned up for the sleepover and the swimming, but you gotta admit the sleepover was one of the best that we ever had. (:
all the food we bought, all the preparation, all the pranks (remember the kissing, the licking, the biting ^^), all the confessions, all the who-will-you-shoot-shag-or-marry, all the water games and the desperate toilet visits, the shouting, the laughing, the hop-catching in the pool, the cam-whoring.

i just want to say, I LOVE MY KNIGHTS. ((((((((((((((((((:

wenyi please please please upload the photos soon. be efficient! lol.

counting down to op. i hope i do well.

you made your decision, stick by it and have no regrets.

val's and sarah's birthday celebration at V8 Cafe.



then stayed over at nette's house.
met bums for like, the last time before he heads to australia.

waiting for steam boat at xinyi's house ltr.
and stay over tonight and swimming tmr.

my block's fire alarm is screwed up.
it's been ringing on and off for the past two hours. and the lift cant be used.
my ahma had to climb up 17 storeys of stairs. i hope the lift repairs itself before i go out. i dont want to walk down.

i hope my period ends today.

HOW DO YOU WRITE CUE CARDS.
teach me teach me teach me.
cos im just copy-pasting everything from my script to the cue card. and i know thats not the right way. but i just cant memorise the whole chunk of info with my limited brain capacity.

and my msn's screwed. i just keep signing in and out and in and out and in and out. and i came online to talk to gerald and now i cant do it. -.-

tmr's my filming. i think i'll end up laughing through out the two minutes again. DAMN. no no no no i can do this i can do this i can do this.

and my period is still NOT HERE YET. and it cant possibly not come by saturday. what the hell. how to go swimming like that you tell me. grr.

op session sucked today. like, HELLO, i so cannot do public speaking. once i stood in front of ms fisher i just had the urge to laugh, and then i had giggle fits. -.- i hope i survive pass op with good grades.

went lunch at pp with zc. i just love love love kfc. (((((((((((:
but its going to make me fat now that im not going back to training yet.

met mr bitchy to watch burn after reading.

burn after reading is like....okay. its not nice but its not not nice either. cos like, the storyline was draggy and confusing and i think the nicest part was when brad pitt got shot. maybe ling was trying to be sarcastic when she said the show was cool.

and hoyuenchi passed EVERYTHING AND GOT TWO As. can you frrrrrrreaking believe it. whats the world coming to when hoyuenchi gets good grades. omg he's scaring me. lol.

and guys can be just as bimbo, or himbo, whatever.

see. he has to look at his hair for ages before he took a picture with me.
and just for the record his hair sucks, HAHAHAHA, its so freaking long and he didnt waxed it, so like, it just flops over his head. lol. i should take a picture and sell it.

bee, thanks for tolerating all my nonsense. i know im damn idiotic and unreasonable at times, thanks for giving in to me. <3

miss chia sent us this:

You should have collected the Reader by end of this week. Please finish reading the novel itself by end of this holidays, if you have not already done so.

You should also finish scanning (or reading) The Great Gatsby reader by end of this holidays too.

I would STRONGLY RECOMMEND that you START (and finish) READING The Duchess of Malfi and Juno and the Paycock and The Plough and the Stars during the 1.5 months holiday you have.

omg. thats just lit alone and we have so much stuff to do alr. and theres still GP papers and math papers and econs papers and geog revision.

and plus PW for now and training for the whole hols.

i should just go be superwoman.

and my chest is still hurting me. it doesnt seem to be getting any better. why why why tell me why.

hj just added me on friendster and i was like, browsing through his pictures. everything's changed so so so much. it made me think back a lot about last time, how we used to be so close, how we always went to his house to play and napok even spoilt his window grill, how crazy he was about her and how we spent hours talking on the phone, how we went swimming tgt at the 'pool' at my house, how carefree everything seemed at that time.

i want to be young again.

my daddy just sent me this email full of pictures and i found this inside.

lol. maybe i should go cut my bowl hairstyle again.


and gerald just told me to go put a tagboard, along with a million other ppl, so there it is. but it just feels damn weird to see it there everytime i open my blog, cos i havent had a tagboard since last yr jan. oh well, if it gets too weird then i'll just take it down again.

germaine's birthday. hope it was a happy one for you love.

credits to germaine foo. (:


and i'm going to miss training for one week. but hopefully i'll get well before that. the pain at that *ahem* area is really very uncomfortable. and everytime when i forgot and took deep breathes it just about kills me.

and i got back my result slip. either i calculated wrongly (><) or they were nice enough to add an extra mark for me COS I PASSED MY GEOG OVERALL. which is quite impossible cos i got S for both midyrs and EOYs. so now it means IM PROMOTED and i ONLY HAVE ONE R PAPER!

but i just sort of told my parents my results. they sound disappointed though. and my dad didnt even realise my promos are over. like, thankyouverymuch lor.

went to zc's house for dinner. his mother's cooking is damn nice la. no wonder he's so fat. lol.

OH. AND WE HANDED IN WR. ((((((((((((: (it's a relieve cos PW has been a bith.)
though ours had like, mistakes inside. but let's hope OP will be better. =)

and i think im watching burn after reading with hoyuenchi on tue. hopefully he doesnt fail, though he claims he wont, cos he's getting back his results tt day. and secretly, that show doesnt seem very interesting to me lehhhhh, but nvm, since he claims its nice i shall just trust him.

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE JAY CHOU.
HIS NEW ALBUM IS DAMN DAMN DAMN NICE.

you just have to love east coast for the view.

many a times we simply overlook the beautiful things in life, not seeing its uniqueness until we view it through another lens.

sometimes i still feel doubtful, but yeah, i guess things will get smoother by the day.



i love my class. (:


- | zaraK A|X says:
some things just cant be forgotten.
even if you brainwash me.
i'll always be your happy pill.
just look for me when you're sad.

thanks ys. (:

today was supposed to be a happy day. the movie was great, lunch was great, the meet-up was great. but now i just have no mood to blog about that anymore.

this feelings is damn shitty. i feel like i'm losing control and losing grip of everything. like, everything is just going wrong and i cant stop it.

just look at my shit-ass results, how badly everything went. look at training, and how i just dont have enough confidence to do the stunts and end up blaming myself for it. look at my life, and how i just suck at time management and end up screwing everything and disappointing everybody. look at the people around me, and how my indecisiveness always end up hurting those that i dont want to. and look at my friendships, i cant even stop and say how much its hurting me to see myself drifting away from people that used to take up almost my entire life.

"friends come and go, you just have to learn to accept it."

why does things have to be this way.

sometimes, i just feel so helpless.

i cant stop the tears.

math - passed the promo paper, but failed overall.
econs - passed the promo paper, but still failed overall.

this is damn depressing. so much for all the harwork. so much for all the mugging. i still have at LEAST 2 R paper to go. my whole holiday will be pathetic.

luckily i passed my gp.

im getting back geog tmr and lit on monday. i think i'm going to fail geog too. pray hard for me.

and jay's cd is postponed to 15 oct. cos of the stupid leaked version. damn it damn it.

my bestf is super nice. she gave me a sunflower to cheer me up. cos i failed so many subjects.

and this are the photos from the other day. baby i love you, even though you're so vulgar and bitchy. :)



okay. and the photos from open house. im lazy to upload everything actually.


the guys made this in a few hours la. they're damn talented. or just plain crazy over F1.



lastly.
gerald is damn lame. shame on him for saying im childish and kiddo. hahahaha.

its less than a week to the release of jay's new album. i cant cant wait. i know there's a leaked version on the net right now. but HELLO PEOPLE, go get the cd, its really really worth the price.

and i realised i've been like suppressing my feelings. like, i keep trying to stop my emotions from taking over. like i just want to remain in control and calm and not experience what i should be feeling.

like, wth. i dont care anymore. im just going to be selfish and care only about myself. i worry so much about what others are feeling and how im responsible for it. and like, actually its not really my business.

and like, there's a lot of irritating and sick people around. its not even via friendster anymore, even msn is not spared. "how old are you", "where are you schooling", "what's your cca", "are you attached".

like, fuck you. this is not a background check. im just NOT interested.

count down to jay chou. (:

this has not been a good week.
i hope the next week gets better. like, a lot better.

im sick of having all the downs and no ups in my life.

the singtel mobile customer that you have reached is not available, your number will be sent via sms to the customer. goodbye.

it's driving me insane seriously. i thought i knew what was best, but is it really for the best? i kept thinking about what happened during the movie today, how happy i felt then.

i seriously dont know what i want, or what to do. i just dont want to make anymore decisions that i'll regret.