you're the world's most irritating and annoying person, forever testing my patience.
but you never fail to make me smile too.

happy birthday. (:

last last pill of antibiotics left and my throat doesnt feel like its recovered yet. i dont know if i should go see doctor again but hello im a poor student i spent like 50$ in two weeks just seeing doctor im going to die of hunger when school reopens. BUT MY THROAT HURTS LIKE FUCK and it only feels slightly better now cos of the medicine i think. please please let this last pill work wonders.

so exams are shifted back by one week and its kind of good cos it gives me time to finish my revision but its kinda bad cos i think im going to forget all that i revised soon. they should just drag it over two weeks so that like, i can study for the next paper after one paper's completed la. its no fun squeezing math and econs (and i haven even started on geog and lit) into your brain when its so small y'know.

went to watch transformers with b ytd and i cant upload the photos cos its in the camera but i dont have the cable. but i think the photos not nice leh and we didnt have time to take much photos anyway. but b said i was pretty ytd im super happy (: and transformers is crazy we booked on sunday for ytd's slot and so many places are SOLD OUT till the weekends. then we had to settle for pasir ris even though its so inconvenient (for me. heh) and all. but its all worth it cos...

TRANSFORMERS IS THE BOMB.

you have have have got to catch it i swear. i can stil remember watching the first one with germaine and her telling me that it'll be stupid but we only watched cos i got like free tix but it turned out to be super good. and plus this movie tells guys not to cheat, ever. lol.

its really really good. and i feel really really happy after yesterday.

and germainefoohuifang, please understand that i really really want to meet you but i have my exams soon and i got to study real real hard now i dont want to be bottom of the class again, but i still love you to the max baby. (:

i kana-ed reinfection again. -.- so now its porridege and porridge, fever and fever, headache and headache again. hopefully the antibiotics works this time round and i wont get it for like, a third time or something.

okay you know im like totally toally troubled now. for once i have like zilch idea about what activities to plan. like shit can, i dont want to screw tmr up.

are they really going to extend the school holidays just because we voted for it?

why are you sad.

is it over, i honestly dont know.
but you were the one who said that you are 'giving up', so i guess i got my answer.

you know i used to complain about how i'm becoming fatter, but i'll rather stay at being 46/47 than losing weight like crazy now and suffering so much in the process.
my stomach feels so weird, probably cos i havent been putting food in since the last 20 hours, and before that all that went in was non-solid food.

but tell me what i can do.

omg im fucking hungry now.
i didnt eat dinner cos my ahma only cooked rice.

i want my porridge. ):

i dont understand how you know, i just dont get sick for a long time, and then wham, when i do, its a damn big one.

im down with throat infection, freaking freaking painful, i cant swallow anything, including my own saliva. -.- its like my body is being racist to my saliva la. i cant eat anything but porridge but my ahma scolded me for being so troublesome and now shes not cooking for me. and shes just full of accusations i feel like slapping her honestly, although i know im not allowed to do that. but i mean, isnt there a rule or something to say that you know, you dont agitate sick people. and i have like, high fever, and bad headache. and everything just sucks cos it makes me freaking depressed. and it makes me cry real badly. cos you know, i hate to go see doctor alone, and i just miss my parents so much cos yeah, when you're sick they're the only ones who really care.

but i guess being sick lets you know who really cares, and who doesnt,

&who is just pretending to be.

i dont know what am i going to do about my ct2, just shoot me now.

its twenty more days to exams. twenty days for four subjects. tell me again why am i doing this, and how possibly can i do it.

all the studying is driving me mad mad mad like seriously, i cant concentrate but im still forcing myself. and i hate to force myself.

you sound upset. &i have no idea why.

farm visit was crazy tiring today. running after the kids cos THEY keep running around, asking them to come back and gather, breaking up fights and all. and to think that its just nine kids you know. i seriously cant imagine how lynette is going to cope with thirteen.

but at least they're cute. (the irritating ones didnt go xD)





thats yuan kai, he just walked up to the uncle suddenly while the uncle was telling us about quails, made me laughed like mad.

















THIS IS MY NEW EYE CANDY!
I LOVE YOU KAI YUAN!
omg he's the cutest ever. at first he's like, totally dont want to talk to me ignoring me, but by the end of the trip he was like coming over to hold my hand whenever we travel from one place to another! so freaking cute! and i even hugged him!








walao i cant see him again le leh. ):

jayss - the left sided me - 我不配 says:
better study hard.
jayss - the left sided me - 我不配 says:
=)
imyourhappypill. says:
haha
imyourhappypill. says:
trying hard
imyourhappypill. says:
but its really hard
jayss - the left sided me - 我不配 says:
haha i know
jayss - the left sided me - 我不配 says:
nobodyy says it's gonna be easy either.

why cant it be easy. why must it be so hard. does life really have no easy route.

i feel very drained mentally suddenly.

my world's topsy-turvy


i've forgotten what it's like to be alone.
well, too bad for me.